Regret .
One hundred songs but not one to describe the feeling in side this darkness this desolation nothing no one to ease the pain of the hate and rage of the life that never should have happened but it did and the regret is overwhelming the nights that are spent tossing and turning and when sleep finally comes it brings the terrible nightmares the waking up with a knife in your hands the memory of the time u almost killed it best friend in ur sleep the fear of sleeping next to anyone because of the violent nature that is hidden inside by a fake welcoming smile and a fake wild personality how did it come to this why is the monster still staring back in the mirror why are the dreams darker than ever the lies told to make it seem like all is well but all while falling apart the hole that you try so desperately to fill but u know in the back of your head that it's not possible u see all the wrong you done and you hate the very breath you take thinking of running but it will do nothing the regrets follow to the end of the earth madness begins to creep soon you will lose all touch try to smoke and drink it away but it only screams louder and louder until you are consumed by rage and grief you ask your self will it ever end will it ever be silent u begin to lose hope the ones you love try to help you but your fall farther into the shadows you begin to wish for the end the drugs never work the booze only makes it worse u find your self on your knees with the gun in hand you raise it to your temple good bye
