I always think about my personality. I am very calm and only speak when someone asks me or seeks my opinion on something. I don't initiate conversation unless it's in rare topics when I need to understand something puzzling or provide information to someone in need. Serenity and tolerance are my main traits, and I'm always occupied with thinking and aspiring for better. There are specific recurring topics that always interest me, with self-development and professional aspirations being the most important. I find myself engrossed in thinking and researching in these areas. There are other topics and issues that I'm not interested in, despite their significance to me. I need to improve my social and family skills, give more time to educate and nurture my family, make them happy, and engage in various aspects of their lives; they really need me to listen to them more.
My personality has been shaped by my daily practices. I'm not very social, spend most of my time alone, and find comfort in it. However, I occasionally have days where I feel bored and can't find anyone to converse with who understands me. Most people think I'm shy and have a weak personality, not distinguishing between tranquility and shyness. I'm not shy to talk to anyone, by God's will, without hesitation. It's just that I'm calm and don't engage in all discussions, especially those that waste my time on unproductive matters.
Initially, I thought I was genuinely shy, but as the days passed, I proved the opposite to myself. I demonstrated this by participating in several programs, such as delivering graduation speeches on two occasions and at different times.
The most important thing in everyone's life, in my opinion, is self-motivation. In this life, we face many risks and obstacles, and the possibility of despair is very real without ambition and self-motivation. There are spiritual aspects that we should adopt and adhere to, including prayer, doing good deeds, helping those in need, and many more.
My life has gone through stages that significantly shaped my personality. Childhood played a significant role. I used to be quiet, shy, and afraid of people, with no one to encourage me to be bolder. At home, I constantly heard discouraging remarks like "You're shy," which frustrated me. I would hear, "So-and-so is better than you; they greet others while you're shy." When they compared me to others, I despised and belittled myself.
School was a very challenging environment for me. I feared the teachers and would be anxious when I saw them. Their teaching style involved force and punishment. I only learned to avoid getting punished or to get good grades. School didn't contribute to the development of my life skills or the strengthening of my personality. I desperately needed someone to support me in escaping the unsettling and frightening school life. I don't recall ever going to school happy. I used to be enthusiastic about it before I entered, not knowing what was inside. But my hopes were dashed as a child when I saw the stressful and uncomfortable school environment for learning and creativity.
