Whispers In The Night

Your ghost that wanders in the night

Leaves me praying to see the light

You whisper so gently in my ear

A voice I wish I couldn't hear

It's not just in dreams that I see there

Its in everything I do and everywhere

Your ghost lingers though you're in the past

It's hard seeing something you cant eve have

The whiskey might as well be water

And therefore my liver is cannon fodder

It doesn't even burn, not anymore

Just like the cold wind that blows on St. Regis's shore

I see the places you've been and wonder

If you're still happy even with all my blunders

I hope you're happy at least because I know I'm not

Wishing your memory was something I forgot

I wonder how you were those few semesters I was gone

Doesn't matter even when I was here you didn't want to talk

I needed you but you didn't need me

Leaving me with nothing to hold on to for eternity

I fight the numbness and the monster inside

Slowly turning into one as my soul starts to cry

Sad thing is my meds won't let me cry

A silent howl that pierces the night's sky

The silence is deafening, wait that's just my tinnitus

Then again it was the same way when my heart was in your trust

I wanted to spend more time, no my entire life with you

But you couldn't even give me the time for kiss or two

I tried to delete your every trace

But my heart still want's to see your face

Your number still stays inside my phone

With a photo of a girl in who I lost hope

I could wait my entire life and I still wouldn't hear

That voice so dainty whispering in my ear

How could someone so small be so cold

You couldn't see it was with you I wanted to grow old

Not able to cry I howl into the night

Praying it will reach you by the morning light

I was the wolf and she my moon

Howling over something I can only swoon

A love that I can never feel or touch

Its on lonely nights I miss her so much

Doesn't matter now if only she could see me

Viewed as a monster she created me to be