The Summer Everything Changed

Everything has changed

( Bellies pov )
She lived with Susannah and the boys. She was lucky, mom wanted me to stay so she had at least one of her girls. She was so infatuated and in love, mom couldn't separate the two. It was that way since they met as babies. Susannah was so excited to have her with them. Rosie never went a day without contacting me, Steven and mom. She even stayed in contact with dad. She was and is the perfect being. That's my Rosie for you. He was hers and she was his. They spent every second of every day together. It was them vs the world. They started dating when they first got into middle school, and went all the way through high school. They almost made it to college but Conrad had wanted things to end. It was out of nowhere. She was planning to go to brown with him, and making cute little list of college date ideas. Until one day he snapped on her and told her he couldn't be with her that they needed space and that they need to explore their options. The only thing was, he was her only option she didn't want anything nor anymore. He was it for her. It broke her.

I'll never forget the day it all happened. The day they broke up. The first day I saw my sister sob. The day he kissed me. The day everything changed. Forever. I had just gotten her to fall asleep. She cried the whole day. Not just cried, she sobbed. I left her room as quiet as possible and shut the door behind me, she needed to sleep if she didn't I don't know if she'd have any more tears left to cry. I went down to the pool to swim I needed some fresh air after being with her in that room all day. I wish she'd come outside, or just out of that room. I know it'll take time and it doesn't help that they live together. Susannah and Jeremiah tried to talk to her, to comfort her but she only wanted me. I felt honored, I'm still special to her, she still has room for me in her life. Steven was out comforting Conrad. Although I don't think drinking is all that comforting. I could hear him and Steven creeping inside the beach house. They must just be returning from the bonfire. I could see Steven go upstairs and the light in his room turn on but not Conrad's. He was headed towards me. I haven't seen him since I heard about the breakup. Part of me wants to scream and yell at him "how could you hurt rosie like this! You're throwing everything away" but a part of me also wants to comfort him and tell him it's okay and that they'll be okay. "Mind if I join you?" He whispered as he stumbled to the edge of the pool. I quickly jumped out scared he'd fall into the pool. I'm not going to be dragging him out nor giving him cpr! "How about I join you." I wrapped myself in my towel and sat beside him. He smiled ever so slightly and put his head down. "You hate me, don't you belly?" I let out a sigh and shook my head. " love is complicated Conrad, I thought you and Rosalie were going to be forever, but I'm not the one in the relationship. Things end, I get it. Just know you're an idiot though. You'll never find anyone better." He slowly brought his head towards mine and grabbed my hand. "What if I already have found better?" I looked at him puzzled. "Do not tell me you're already looking and Conrad oh my god DO NOT tell me you're seeing someone?!" All he did was shake his head, that's it. A head shake. He really knows how to fuel the flame. Before I could continue questioning him, his lips met mine. I immediately pushed him away. "Conrad you're drunk, we need to get you to bed." A million things were crossing my mind. Did Conrad just kiss me? Why did I want it to happen again. What is wrong with me. "Please belly. You know you feel it. I know you do." my heart was racing. He felt it? How could I even want to feel it. How could I FEEL it. "time for bed." I quickly stood up and got him to walk with me to his room and into his bed. "don't deny it belly." He whispered in my ear as I covered him up. Shivers went down my back. I needed to get away from him. "goodnight Conrad" I managed to say before running out of there and to my room.

When I woke up Rosalie was sleeping beside me. She must've snuck in. She looks at peace. Beautiful and no tears in sight. Then it hit. Conrad kissed me that night. Guilt filled my whole body.
I liked it. I wanted it to happen again. I needed it to happen again. Ugh. I gave her a big squeeze and a kiss on her cheek. "I'm going to go get some muffins. Stay here." She groaned and turned on her side. I snuck into Conrad's room and pushed him side to side. "Wake up, you're coming to get muffins with me." He groaned and covered his head with a pillow. "Conrad, now." I grabbed the pillow and hit him with it. "Get up, I'll be waiting down stairs." As I waited I wondered if he'd even remember what he did, or what he said. A part of me was hoping he'd remember. I hated it. How could I feel like this. "let's get this over with so I can sleep." He mumbled as he made his way down the stairs.
We secured a dozen muffins and were headed back when I turned us and lead us down to the beach. "Do you remember anything from last night?" I tried to hide the hope that was desperately pleading to come out.
He stopped walking and hesitantly looked at me. "Belly, I never forget anything when I drink." There it was. My heart was racing again. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak. I was afraid I'd tell him I liked it that I felt it too. I couldn't say that. I couldn't do that to Rosalie.
"Belly." My breath hitched as he stepped closer to me. He was so close. I couldn't get a word out. Nor could I look at him. "You feel it don't you?" His hand caressed my cheek. It felt like my heart was going to explode it was beating so fast. Could he hear it too? "Look at me belly. I know it's wrong. Trust me I know, but I need to know, I need to know that you feel it. Please." He was desperate. I was frozen yet I managed to look at him. His eyes. God his eyes, they're beautiful. All the feelings I used to have for him came flying back. " I do." A bright smile came across his face. His lips crashed into mine once again and this time I didn't push him away. I couldn't, his lips felt like air. I needed them. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my lips deeper and deeper into his. It felt like we'd never stop, we didn't need to. Like it was just us, but it wasn't.

"belly?...." Conrad and I both pulled away and there she was. Rosalie. Her face was so so pale. Again, I couldn't move. I just watched her run to the house. Frozen Conrad and I stood. What are we doing. How could I. What the hell is wrong with me. With us. With him.