something about you- lena oberdorf

VII.

me
hello? is this lena oberdorf?
here's the girl from yesterday,
at the stadium.

I hold my breath. Shit. What am I doing???

But I remember that my wish last year, was for this year to stop my overthinking. So I stop thinking and press the send button. But let's be for real, it's crazy. The me from last year didn't think that this year I would have to text a professional football player.

I feel like throwing my phone against the wall and jumping out of the window, when I hear my phone make a sound that sounds like someone has send me a message. I swear to god if this is her...it has only been 5 minutes.

I look at my display, and a text from an random number appears, that definitely looks like hers.

me
hello? is this lena oberdorf?
here's the girl from yesterday,
at the stadium.

04567935281 ~ obi
well hello
thought you would never talk to me

My hands are shaking when my fingers try to figure out what to answer. I can't believe, that I am texting the real Lena Oberdorf. Well, maybe it's an fake number and she just wanted to mock me....okay I definitely don't think it's this way.

me
sorry, had to figure things out.
it's not every day that lena oberdorf
asks you to text her lol

lena oberdorf
happens.
oh and please call me obi
i hate my name

me
ok obi
think i will get some sleep tho
had a stressful day.

obi
good night
make sure you text me tomorrow

me
i'll think about it
read 8:56pm

I am acting all confident and chill but I am pretty much the opposite. Did she just asked me to text her again? Oh, and no I won't go to sleep, but Kie is standing in front of the bathroom door, begging me to open up, because she has to pee very badly. Kie has the perfect timing tho. I wouldn't have coped with texting Obi longer than 2 minutes.

I don't know what to do, I don't know what I should say to her tomorrow, I don't know how I feel, I don't even know if it's right to keep contacting her, because due to my researches she is a lesbian and I am a woman that does not know what she wants.
I never knew...

"What took you so long? Are you okay? You have been so silent all day." Kie wonders.
"No, I mean yeah, yes I'm okay. It's just the whole thing with Toby you know...sucks" This time I actually am able to tell a lie, but only because of this terrible situation. I feel kinda bad taking it as an excuse, but I can't let anyone know.

We don't stay up long today and go to bed at 11pm.
-
„Wake up bitch" I hear someone shouting in front of the door, that sounds like Kie.

I layed in bed way too long last night, but I couldn't stop thinking about Lena.

The first thing I do this morning is giving Toby and Emma, his little sister that stayed home too, a big hug. I hope they know how much I care about them.
To continue our ritual we eat pancakes for breakfast and talk about what we should do today.

„Let's throw a party here at Tobys today, as long as his parents aren't back."
Rick will never get tired of partying. He is my „let's get drunk and live our life while we are young" friend and I could never wish for someone else than him.
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No one of the significant six know about how close we two really are. Can't blame them tho. We shoot at us with insults a lot, but that's just our way to show love to one another.

When I was at my lowest he was the one that saved me. He was the first one I opened up about my body dismorphia, bad eating habits and depression.
He helped me, because I could talk to him and he wouldn't just listen, instead he really talked with me about it, asking questions, giving advices and in the end also managed to make me laugh with his weird jokes.

That dumbass just got lucky that he was the first that knew about me struggling with mental health issues. It could've been anyone else...
but I take this one too. He really is my bestest friend in the world.
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„You know what. Sounds great. I need alcohol to adjust myself to this new life."
Tobys reaction surprised me, but I was happy about the idea. Throwing partys is one of my favourite things to do.

„What about Emma?" Lily asks.
Yeah...I forgot about that one. But Lily makes my worries go away quickly.
„I can take her. I would go home anyways when the party is starting." 
„Can we trust you?? Man idk...you and kids...sounds dramatic!" Smilla jokes, making clear that Lily is Emmas babysitter for this night.

Lily loves kids so much, it is digusting. I could never be a kids lover. I don't even want kids. Or maybe it's the whole "get a man and start a family" thingy too.
Nope, it does not get to me.

Me and Rick get the drinks and snacks at the supermarket across the street. Meanwhile the others are cleaning, decorating the house and sending invitations away.

After 2 hours of preparation we are ready to party and give our makeup the last touches to look perfect.

„First guests are arriving in 10 minutes." Toby shouts from downstairs. " Yessir!! We will hurry." I shout back from upstairs in the bathroom, where Kie, Smilla and me are getting ready.
„We look hot as fuck. Let's get some boys tonight." Smilla flirts with herself in the mirror, while taking pictures of herself, and of course she also does one of us three together.

I would never reply to that type of sayings. Every time I came close with a guy at a party, I was blackout drunk and regretted it the next morning. You couldn't even blink twice and this person was blocked out of my life everywhere. I don't even know if I enjoyed it in the moment, but for me it was never what I expected it to feel like.

author's note—
- obi is so confident in my mind and i love it
- alora is just like me lol