AN: Huge TW, If you couldn't tell by the title a description. Reader discretion is highly advised
To Mom
I know you didn't wish this for me
You wanted me to be successful
And not give up when it got hard
But when you put so much effort into yourself
And nothing changes
Don't you just wanna give up?
Because let's face it: No one cares if you TRY
But they all care if you DO
It's hard to have a good heart
And live in a cruel world
So I'd rather live in a world that didn't have any of that
Then live in a cruel one, and get shoved off of it anyway
I just did everyone a favor
And got rid of the problem: Me
I'm constantly the person that everyone has to worry about
But not anymore
Because everyone took it too far
And I made the decision
Not to take it anymore
Love, Me
To: Dad
It's so hard to see your face
And watch you cry
Because you never cry
You always set a good example
When it came to this world
Only show energy and emotion
When crucially needed
And you never let anyone get the best of you
But I did
And I'm sorry
I'm sorry that you and everyone else have to suffer
Due to my decision
I didn't want to suffer anymore
And I'm sorry if that seems selfish
But I've had enough
Love, Me
To: My Lover
I hate seeing you like this
More of a hot mess than you initially were
And I'm sorry that I left you to the wolves
But I don't want to suffer
And I hate seeing you suffer
So, please
Take your time to grieve
And then move on
And live your life like you should
Get married
Have kids
Become a drummer
And remember all of the valuable lessons you learn along the way
You can do this
But I couldn't
And I'm sorry
Love, Me
To: Everyone
I know how hard it is
To lose someone close
And I'm sorry that I put you all through that
And I'm sorry that this is selfish
But everyone does things that seem selfish
Because they think that it is right
I did everyone a favor
Simply
I realized I was a problem
So I left
So, please
Take your time to grieve
And then move on
Love, Me
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PoetryThis is something I wanted to do for a while. Huge Trigger Warnings for people sensitive to super depressive topics. DISCLAIMER #1: I am in no way shape or form, $u!c!dal, but don't you ever just want to give up on life? Like, not die, but give up...
