"I Love You..."

"I hate you!" I shouted to my mother as i was walking to the door and then shut it with a loud slam. I couldn't handle it anymore, she was just so annoying! All she did was stay in bed and not do anything but sleep or as she called it "rest." I always did the cleaning in this stupid house and somehow it always ended up being dirty when I came back from school. Somehow trash would be everywhere, clothes all over the floor, and trash in every corner you can think of and I wouldn't know how this woman could even do these kinds of things. This time, after I got out of school and went home and saw the mess, I got fed up with it for the last time. I yelled at her saying,"YOU NO GOOD LAZY POOR EXCUSE OF A WOMAN!" I didn't regret saying that and didn't care about how she felt whatsoever. I left the house with her there and went to my friends place and stayed there for a couple of hours. It turned dark soon and his mother soon urged me to go back home, I didn't want her to know what I said to my mother so I nodded in agreement and left, slowly dragging my feet in the floor. Every feeling in my heart didn't want to go back to that wretched place. When i finally arrived, I opened the door and for a quick second, I was surprised that the house was clean. Under my breath I muttered,"About time this good for nothing woman did something, ugh I can't stand her anymore..." I went down the hall, heading towards my room when something made me furious. As i passed her room, that stupid woman was sleeping again but this time with a small towel on her head. I got angry at her because she thinks that cleaning once is super hard. Without thinking, I marched in her room and smacked the damp towel off her head and yelled,"YOU DON'T DESERVE THIS!" I walked straight to my room and slammed my door shut not realizing she was reaching out toward me. An hour or so had passed, when soon I heard her calling out my name in that scratchy low voice as if she was going to die. I ignored her and laid down in bed when soon sleep started taking me away. Morning had come, and I noticed it was cloudy outside. I changed and rushed out of the house, straight past her room and down the hall, not wanting to see her face. I walked to school since it was less than ten minutes to get there and the skies grew darker with every minute. I can hear the thunder rolling and the flicker of lightning inside the clouds. When i arrived at school, it started to pour and I realized that I had forgotten my jacket. As i walked into the classroom, I muttered under my breath,"Great now Im gonna get wet after school, guess it's too much for that "woman" to bring me my stupid jacket.." A few minutes had past when soon a cop came into the classroom and asked my teacher if they could see me for a while. He agreed and let me go out to the hall. As i got out, the officer took off his hat and softly said," Your mother is in the hospital and....she isn't going to make it..I'm sorry son..." A long silence came after that and the officer finally spoke again,"Cmon, lets get you to the hospital and say your farewells." I really didn't care much, but this gave me an excuse to get out of school, so I nodded and went with the cop. I stayed silent during the ride watching as the water dripped down the sindow. When we arrived at the hospital, the doctor came to us and told us that she had passed away. I really didn't feel sympathy, but the doctor still escorted me to her room where she used to be at. When I entered, the doctor handed me a note saying it was from her and that she urged me to read this and this was the last thing she wanted from me. I took the note and rolled my eyes and started to read as the doctor left the room. I sat down on a chair and started to read. It said,"Dear son, I never got to say this but, I always appreciated what you did for me and the stuff you did around the house. You made my life easier and I know I made you do alot and I'm sorry if I put you through so much...I'm so sorry I put you through that, please forgive me. I was in so much pain because....I had cancer that was untreatable...and I never told you this because...I didn't want you to worry. Your doing so good in school, I didn't want to mess up your future and ruin your life...Just, don't forget I've always loved you do matter what you did...like when you hit the towel off my head...Guess you were right that I didn't deserve it...I'll always love you and you mean the world to me. I'm sorry I couldn't be the mother you always wanted. Keep going in life my son and no matter what, I'll always be here for you from up above because...I know my time is short and I leave you this note...I just hope you can forgive me...I love you...~Your Mother." As soon as I finished reading the note, tears were rolling down my eyes and my hands started shaking, gripping the paper tightly. I turned my head to the side and noticed my jacket was on the bed and started to cry even more. "She thought of me...." I said softly and thinking how she died loving me till the end, going through all the pain just to give me what i needed. I cried harder at the thoughts crossing theough my mind, closing my eyes tightly and soon ran to the bed she used to be in and collapsed on my knees and buried my face in her ned sheets and yelled into it,"MOMMY PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME!" Tears rolled down my eyes non-stop, making my eyes sting. I buried my face more into the sheets weeping still and I looked through my watery eyes and noticed something sticking out of her pillow. I slowly lifted it and soon my eyes widened and my eyes started forming more tears. Under her pillow was a photo of us smiling and standing shoulder to shoulder. I could feel my eyes stinging again from the tears as it rolled down my rosy cheeks. I held the picture close to my heart and held it tightly in my arms and kept crying and softly said,"I love you..."