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Expectations

The next day after he accepted to date me it was different.

I got a message like :,, Morning darling"
It made me feel so happy to know someone loves me.. More than that tbh.
I remembered then that I told him that he will get get bored of me in the end like all my friends.
That was something I was so afraid of.. But he didn't mind it.
It was my first boyfriend, my first love, and it was the first time I felt love and someone treated me so well.

In time, I still couldn't get used to his sweet words and I was very embarrassed to say,, I love you" because I barely said that to someone ever.
He was my favourite dummy, my favourite guy, I decided to give my best for this relationship because it looked like it's worth.
And we both did it... He more
He understood me that i couldn't say sweet words yet and was embarrassed, all he said to me about it was :,, its enough to know u love me, it's ok if u can't say I love you"
It was very sweet.. My guy was so sweet and nice, I was proud to have someone like him.
I always showed photos I didn't like about me. Instead he told me im beautiful and that I should appreciate myself and raise my self esteem.
He liked me a lot I understood that, even when he was eating he was texting me, he did it even when he was at his online lessons,he always found time for me, always made sure I'm fine, and always tried to make me happy even if i didn't ask for it.
He was so lovely, each day I was falling more and more, it was the best.
But something inside me always felt guilty for, and i know the reason why it happened so.
He did everything for me, for my hapiness, as he could understand me and he told me a lot, but I... I did less, I was embarrassed to say som words, embarrassed to ask for som, and I didn't knew how to act properly in a relationship.
Somehow it was my fault, I should have tried to understand that time, but I still regret even now.
I didn't appreciate som things enough to do it back.
Instead he did all for me, and gave up to som things even if i didn't ask for it as he could make me happy.
Well Max(his name) was always feeling good around me, it's true that it was not a problem if I couldn't say I love you often, but that's because he was an innocent guy, someone who aprecciate love and understood it.

In time we learned to talk about problems, about things that disturbed us and learn to fix and change it as well could do it well.
The day I got upset and I told some things he didn't got mad at me, but tried to fix it instead and talked it out <3
He was the best sweetie till then.

In time he helped me so much, and I was not embarrassed anymore,i could say I love you, and start to call him by nicknames as well 😌

Max was always the one teaching me things, and I aprecciate it a lot for that.

That's all for now