basically my life

Summer 2k15

It seems to me that I cry myself to sleep instead of having sleepovers with friends and stuff.
I've literally hung out with zero friends this whole summer.

it came to my mind that I've pushed so many people out of my life or I've said something to offend them and they have completely shut me out of their life like haven't you ever made a mistake?! I lost one of my friends due to an argument over which pool we wanted to go to. she doesn't know how bad she made me cry. I texted her last night and this was our conversation:
me: hey
her: hey
me: wyd
her: beach
me:🆒
and that was it.

I have another friend to when I said "We need to hang out asap" she said "well I'm doing so and so with blah blah and then were also doing something else with blah blah and blah blah blah."
she hurt my feelings when she said that. I haven't seen her since school ended and she doesn't care.

I also lost another friend due to her commitment to be friends she hasn't spoken to me or anything since September 19, 2014.

I'm sorry for the rant but I have no one to talk to about these kinda things because I don't have a friend I can cry on their shoulder and they would listen I'm just kinda an outcast when it comes to friends.

I'm loud obnoxious crazy I don't show my real self around anyone because I get called fake and crap. I'm just kinda done with the thought of having a "best friend" because I don't have one.

so...... I'll write more when I can till then see ya.

next chapter has a surprise so just wait!!