Relatable shit

5. Letters

A/N

Hello! Each of these paragraphs are to a different person. Hopefully you find some of them relatable. <3

Hey look... I am sorry. I know you might have been one of the few people in my whole life that cared but I think it is stupid you care. I love you to bits and that is why I am pushing you away. You are so nice. You have a kind soul. You put me first. You deserve the world and we are getting along so well but it is time I go. I always do this. Push people away. It is stupid but I don't wanna be the burden. I don't believe you love me even though you might. I wish you luck and I am not gonna leave you completely but I can't open up and make you love me anymore or even let you love me because that is a waste of your love and time.

I cared so fucking much. I know you probably don't and never did and fuck I still care about you. No matter how much you hurt me. No matter what you said. No matter what you did. You are human and I care so I will tell you when you are doing something incredibly. Don't fucking question it next time because I care. Even if it doesn't seem like it though it probably does. You matter so much and I hate that. I hate you and I love you. I know. It is confusing. I am a confusing person. I wish you the best. I hope you get better because I still think that you did wrong because others did you wrong. Maybe if everyone did better then we would all be happy. 

My smile comes from you. You light up my world even though you probably forgot me. We might have never been that close but my tears dry at the thought of you. You are so amazing and I just wanna wish you luck on the rest of your life because I know that I am not gonna be apart of it. Yes, it will be hard. But I will push through. I wanna be just as strong as you. A warrior. I will never forget you. 

Your hair, your eyes, your smile, your looks, I have it all. You gave birth to me but still you don't dry my tears, you create them. Ok you are doing your best but I can't live with your best. Your words are so painful. You never listen and so I shut up. You think I am ok because I don't speak up anymore. I don't cry anymore. Not in your eye line anyway.

I wanna be in your arms, you would probably hug me till I die. If only you knew me. Fluffy hair I would run my fingers through while we talk for hours on end. If only I was older. No it is not weird because mentally I am much much older. But here I am trapped in this small body to be sad and alone. One day. One day I will meet you and hug you. 

Fuck you for being so amazing. I love you so much and you are like perfect. I see guys look at you the way I want guys to look at me. But I know I don't deserve that. I ask for one thing from you. Tell me the truth. I know you think it is better to hide but I can see how sad you actually are. No you are not numb you are hiding! I can fucking see it and all I want is to take your pain but I know I can't. What I can do though is talk to you but I doubt you want to talk. It is fine, just keep walking and dancing like you are the happiest thing on earth even though you are clearly dying.

You don't fucking know how much you mean to me. Yes we fight, yes we get upset, yes it gets tough but in the end it is me and you. No one else we be here and we both learnt our lessons. People will pretend to care, lie and cheat on you. It is impossible for us to do that to each other. You are mine and I am yours and I want you to be happy with me, to cry in my arms, to tell people. 'Yeah, I know them. They are mine!'

Hey guys. Life can be tough but we will survive. 

Silver out <3