One by One || 5sos • au

Chapter 19

Today is the day before the first day of school. Wonderful. Hint the sarcasm.

I didn't sleep at all last night. I was up all night thinking about what people would think about me. It seems crazy that that's the main thing I'm worried about.

I slid out of bed to go to the bathroom. I was going to take a shower but I realized that I didn't really want to. I wasn't doing anything today anyway.

Maybe I should call my mom to explain the whole crisis. I don't know if she wants to hear it though. Then again, I need to talk to her.

I pulled out my phone and dialed my mom. After about 4 rings she answered.

"Hello?"

"Mom..." I almost wanted to cry at the sound of her voice. She sounded so tired.

"Sweetie... I'm so sorry."

"It's not your fault mom. It's not like you knew he was going to do this when you married him."

"I just... I feel like I should come home," she began to cry and I wanted to too.

"Mom... no. You're making more money this way. Money that we need," I swallowed a lump forming in my throat, "I'm fine... really."

"Okay... I believe you. When does school start again?"

"Tomorrow."

"Oh my god I'm not going to be there for your first day at a new school!"

"Mom...it's fine, really. I've already made friends that can help me. I won't be alone."

"Just remember I love you and i'll always be there in spirit."

"I love you too mom."

"I'll be home soon honey, bye."

"Bye."

I hung up the phone and wanted to start bawling but I held it in.

Once I got myself together I walked downstairs. To be greeted by Michael.

"Hey babe," I still always melted when he called me babe. It just made me feel some type of way.

"Hi," I cracked a fake smile. Apparently it wasn't good enough.

"What's wrong?" Michael asked concerned.

"Nothing. really," I replied.

He didn't seem to be convinced but he just pushed it aside and tried to change the subject.

"Well, since I can tell you are very unkept right now and probably don't want to go out... wanna watch a movie?" he asked making me laugh. I was wearing a big t-shirt and shorts and my hair was in the messiest pony tail on earth.

"Thanks for pointing that out, Michael," I said laughing.

I walked over to couch and sat down next to him.

"So what movie do you wanna watch?" I asked.

"How about Lady and the Tramp!" Michael said a little so excited.

"Okay calm down Michael... that's fine," I said laughing.

"YES!" he nearly screamed. He was such a baby.

Michael and I cuddled with each other all day and watched movies. I loved these kind of days with Michael. Just being lazy and sitting on the couch and cuddling.

Mu eyelids began to get heavy. Then I just let them takeover and I shut my eyes.

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I woke up in the same position I fell asleep in. Cuddled up next to Michael with his arm around me. I looked at the clock and it was 11:36. I need to get sleep.

I started to shake Michael to get him to wake up but he didn't budge so I just left him on the couch.

I made sure to set my alarm for 6 since I had to shower in the morning.

Right when I laid my head down on my pillow I was out.

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Lazy lover, find a place for me again
You felt it once before
I know you did, I could see it
Whisky princess
Drink me under, pull me in
You had me at come over boy
I need a friend
I understand

I had forgotten I had set my alarm to Backseat Serenade. Definitely a good way to start the morning.

I rolled over and turned my alarm off. Realizing that I really don't want to do this. Why? Why was school invented? I hate the world and all its stupid facets.

I slowly got out of bed and walked into the bathroom. I slowly undressed myself and slowly got into the shower. I did everything slowly.

I got dressed slowly, I did my makeup slowly, I did my hair slowly. slow, slow, slow.

I was done getting ready at 7:33 that means that I had an extra 20 or so minutes to sit and relax.

I walked downstairs and saw that Michael was still asleep on the couch. Idiot.

I shook him to wake him up and he looked at me with tired eyes.

"Michael," I laughed, "it's time to wake up we have school."

"Oh shit what time is it?" he said frantic.

"Calm down its only," I paused to look at the time, "7:35," relief spread across his face after I said that.

He got up and went upstairs to get ready.

I sat on the couch watching TV waiting till 8 which was when we had to leave.

He walked back downstairs after 10 minutes passed. I still don't understand how boys get ready so fast.

He sat down on the couch next to me and watched TV with me.

Time went by fast and it was 8 already.

"Let's get going shall we?" I looked at Michael and stood up.

"Yeah, okay."

"You nervous?" he asked me looking in my eyes.

"More than ever."

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(a/n- what do u think people will think of her??)