Why now? Why me?

Chapter 1.

Remus.
I walk trough the halls of Hogwarts. I hear whispering behind my back. It feels horrible, but I've got Lily, Mary and Marlene. They support me and they try to be with me so no one will bully me. But it doesn't work that way. I look down and go into a random classroom to get away from all the weird looks. I hear the door open and close again and I turn around. There he stands, I look at him terrified.

Severus Snape.

"So, you're gay now?" He asks cold. "No, I always was." I look back and he only gets madder. "Good joke Remus." He laughs at me. He walks close to me and I can feel his breath on my face, but I don't look away. "Yeah, I know right?" I say my voice dripping of sarcasm. He looks annoyed. "Why now?" He asks. "What do you mean?" I ask. He kicks me in the balls. I fall onto the ground and Severus beats me up. When I start to see white spots Snape gives me a last kick and I see black I can hear him walk away.

When I wake up I am in the hospital wing. I try to sit up, but everything hurts. And there is someone at the side of my bed. I look at the person and I see Sirius Black reading a book. I've never spoken to him, he is in Gryffindor too, but he is a bit of a asshole and haves his own gang with James and a boy called Peter. He looks up from his book and sees I'm awake. He nods and just asks: "You okay?" He asks. I nod slowly and he stands up. "I will keep going then, hope you get better soon." He says.

It's weird. I had not expected that Sirius of all people would do that. He doesn't actually care about people. He helped me, Remus of all people. I may be a werewolf, but I am not pathetic. Lily Marlene and Mary know about it. They support me when I feel bad. They help to less the pain I feel constantly. They always helped me trough everything and I barely did something to pay them back for all their help.

The next day I go to my first class. After that I go to Sirius and his annoying friends. I walk behind them and I pat Sirius on his shoulder. They turn around and look at me expectingly. "Can I talk to you for a second?" I ask. He nods and he says to James and Peter that he will catch up with them later. We walk into a empty classroom. "What did you want to talk about?" Sirius asks. I look at my feet and say: "Why did you help me?" I ask. Sirius face grows dark. "You were beaten up. By that son of a bitch Snivellus. How could I let you there laying on the ground?" He asks back. "Well, you don't know me. And I am gay." I say. "So next time you want me to just walk by? And I don't care if you are gay or bi or a werewolf or whatever." Sirius says. My eyes grow wide and I look at Sirius' face. "H-how did y-you know t-that?" I ask. Sirius frowns. "What did I know?" He asks. "T-that I am a w-werewolf." I say in a whisper. I am scared and I want to run away from Sirius. "You are?!" Sirius asks. I nod while tears slip down my face. I sit down on a chair and Sirius sots down beside me. "I already told you that I don't care, and I won't tell anyone, even James not. I think it is pretty cool." Sirius says. I look up surprised. "You really won't tell anyone? And believe me it's not cool. It's horrible that you have to live with turning into a monster every month, to be a monster. And then I didn't even mention the pain." I say. "I won't tell. And you are not a monster. I see every time in class or the library that you help everyone with their homework, even if you have to learn for a test yourself. You have lots of friends and everyone loves you. So don't say you're a monster." He says. I smile sadly. "It's just to calm myself down. And no one loves me in the way I want to be loved if you get what I mean." I say. Sirius nods. "I do get that, I really do but I am super sure that there is someone that loves you, like you want him to." Sirius says and walks away.

I am overwhelmed. I don't know what to say and if I am reading in the library a few days later Snape, Regulus and Barty are standing around me. I try to get away, but I can't go anywhere. "Aren't you going to say hello? Like a normal guy would do." Regulus snaps at me. "I don't know if a "Normal" guy would say hello if it's you." I answer back. I could hit myself, why did I say that out loud?! That's so stupid, now they are only more mean and angry. "What did you say?!" Snape whispers in my ear to not get anyone's attention. "N-nothing." I said while looking down and walking backwards. Barty hits me in the face a few times, but I am used to pain by now. Transforming is worse. I feel that my nose is broken, I have a black eye and my lip is swelling. Then suddenly Sirius walks to us and nods to Regulus. And then walks over to me, he takes my hand and kisses my cheek, I a confused but Sirius says. "Hay honey, you look terrible let's go to the hospital wing." He pulls me away from Snape, Regulus and Barty and we walk not to the hospital wing. We walk to my dorm. (I got one for myself because of my fury little problem) Sirius let me sit down on my bed and he takes his wand and he chair. He sits in front of me and asks: "Do you trust me?" I nod and he makes my nose like it was. He slinks my lip, but my black eye stays, he gets a towel and makes it wet and starts wiping the blood of my face. "That looks much better." Sirius says. I nod and swallow. I feel really awkward. "Why did you act like you were my boyfriend?" I ask. "Don't know, it was easier to get you away from Snivellus, Barty and my stupid brother. And it is better, my brother will tell my parents that I'm gay and my parents will get mad, but they at least know then." Sirius says. I look at him confused. "You're gay? What do you mean your parents will get mad? Is Regulus your brother?! You used me to come out?!" I scream at him. "Yes I am gay. My parents will get mad because I am the white sheep of the family. Yes, Regulus is my darling brother. Er, I would not like to call it using you. I know I did kiss you and take your hand, but it was only on the cheek. And I do think you're pretty cute actually." Sirius answers. I hit him in the face. Hard. "Get out of my dorm!" I snatch the towel from his hand and push him away.