My life

Morning of 13/03/2019 , I am going to school because my final exam that day I went to school after school I come back I see that alot of people are standing in front of my house in that people i was coming home happily I was smiling, my childhood friend (anshika) she was also in crowd she come to me and she said your uncle committed suicide I was like what she said your family took your uncle to hospital I run into my home upstairs my mom and some of my neighbour are standing I saw them I changed my cloths and then my aunty call as and tell us.. uncle is (no more) ...
Everyone is crying and me who is shocked because my uncle loved me so so much even he has his own daughter
But still he loves me more then his daughter i didn't cried but I don't know what to do i was (11y/old) my family members are crying so badly after that night time . I go to bed early that night
My house as 4 floor on 3rd floor my uncle suicide my mom and my brother was not sleeping so they listen a sound
Of someone walking everyone heard that weird sound ... Some weird sound me heard but after that everything was getting fine .. soon the new years is coming ..... To be continue in 2020

(New year 2020)
Covid 19 started
we didn't celebrate because my uncle was the youngest son of my grandmother we are not likely to celebrate it so nothing special thing happen .. my grandmother was not happy .. my grandfather getting week
And not able to walk but no one knows what is going to happen tomorrow..
A morning of (09/09/2020) my grandfather passed away we are not fine and our grandfather died I cried alot that day because of my grandfather just me thinking how it is possible just my uncle passed away I cried so so much I was not feeling well and didn't felt fine .. I just remember some things
So after that I alway dream of my grandfather and my uncle we are not fine and my father have financial problem.. my father got so many problems and so many responsibilities
The new year is coming soon

(New year 2021)

We are fine but not with financial issues and then we don't have to go to schools because of lock down the worst time started from 2020 .. i joined snapchat because I don't know what is that but I started to use this at first I think it is like Instagram then I slowly slowly started to use i also got to know what is snapchat . All fine I found a friend her name is (Sara) she live in Hyderabad we talked alot but I never cared about my self but then I started using snapchat and instagram nothing change and in the end of the year like December i found a kpop ground called  ( BTS ) i was like what is that I don't even know the name of members but slowly i learned everything about that well I like all the members of the BTS but I got so much attracted to (JIMIN)
I was so deeply in love with him i only think about jimin everywhere i only imagine him I love him so and again after that
when I realise my personality is not good i just hate it . My friend (SARA) She asked me to send a picture of me i send her she said you look good I was like how can she like me I don't like my own self but that is fine she forget her snapchat password . I just started to love my self I found my self happy what I am I just don't know I just started loving my self and after some time I messaged her I asked her why you are not active on snapchat she replied - I forget my password .. I said ohh that's the problem she said yes . The new year is again so soon

(  New year 2022 )

School start's again I was happy to see my friends all good i always went to school and first unit test are back
I give unit test and then summer vacation started I just want my self good looking I feel uncomfort around good looking girl that all fine i started my skincare like home remedies but not chemical products I used .. some home made face packs and everything I done ... I just don't know how I feel about my self .. summer vacation are done school open's again .I got a crush on a boy I don't know what happened but i fall in love with him just I don't know how everytime I think of him i dream about him like i donated my life to him that much I love him .. my friend (shabahat) ..  I tell her that I love him he is my crush and I am so deeply in him .. my crush name is (Krishna)
I really love him i think he is my last and forever I took it seriously .. but you know I improved my self so much some boy loves me or we can say they have crush on me I don't give attention to them because i told you I don't see anyone because I love only Krishna he was topper and topper just study you know they don't give attention to much that's all fine I didn't said any thing good .. my friend shabahat tell everything about i said to him and after that day he just stoped to pay attention on my I didn't said anything all fine
But he always give a big smile and alot of eye contact I just die for him  after that .. NEW YEAR ...

(NEW YEAR 2023)
winter vacation and then after that final exam we all gave exam are going well .... But someone said that you will never know when you are seeing a person last time .. and when we have last eye contact yeahh this happened with me he changed his school when I get to know I was like what ! What did you said my friend ( ARADHYA) told me I cannot control my self I cry for him because I was very serious with him but we never talked and never met eachother.. but I really love him I cried so so so much for him i just thought I listed something that is mine like 15 or 20 days i cried i can't control my self what is happening to me i just want to cry and every time I want to cry , I hate it .. and then I day I think that he will comeback in some days but he didn't i imagine him everywhere like i don't want any one I am fine alone i distanced everyone.. I stay in a room I don't talk to my family members I don't pay attention to anything like just I am losted i don't know what to do ... One day I realised that he left me for his future why don't I . I didn't saw his face from March 6 / 2023 .... why I am waiting for him it been 5months like July .. I stoped waiting for him i moved on i took 5 months but all fine . I just love me loneliness I listen song and live in my own world but i stayed loyal for him i moved on but 7 months .. 5 months i took to move on and 2months i stayed loyal .. I feel really dead inside I just want to take
and then the entry of the boy who has crush on me ....
His name is (FAIZ) but i don't love him he is just as my friend he message me i give and get respect from him like i talk so nicely to him... Fine and my school decided for school trip .. we went to water park .. when I was coming home from water park I just ended to talk with him i don't like it we just stoped to talk this is also fine it's time current 

To be continue** .......