A Mixture of Emotions

The Stillness in The Breeze

I am surrounding by movement
But my heart feels still
In my mind I want to let it all out
But I feel emotionally killed..

It's so weird that I saw you
And I couldn't even feel
I've been giving it all
With not much to recall
My tank needs to be refilled..

I feel so dragged and beatened by the breeze of life
It tore me,
ripped me
all my loving nature apart

And now?
I don't even know what to feel
I'm battered and bruised
I've been emotionally killed

But do you even see?
I want to feel
I want to love..
I want to go back to that place
Where I could lose it
A place of no abusing..

I want nonstop loving,
Without a pause or cease
I want to be moved
Moved ...
with the current breeze...