Your Shadow Crosses Mine

21

Please tell me this is some sick joke.

Or I heard it wrong.

The clapping gets louder as Leonardo and a women hand in hand appear on the stage.

I can see the women smiling wide as her hand shows off the engagement ring.

As my eyes stay still, my brain wanting this to be a dream and I'll wake up any moment.

My eyes can't help but meet Leonardo's.

All he does is keep grinning like he isn't making eye contact with me.

The sudden feeling of nausea suddenly settles in and I feel like at any second I'm just gonna vomit.

Placing my empty glass down on the bar I make my way outside.

As I rush to a bush I can't help but vomit.

How the fuck am I this dumb

I didn't expect forgiveness for what I did but this?

Why the fuck would he sleep with me.

If all this time he was just gonna get engaged to someone.

Have I made him cheat in anyway

My mind is running a hundred miles and I can't stop.

I grab a rock and throw it into the bush as all I feel right now is anger.

But most of all just stupid.

Stupid at the fact I let myself believe in something I knew was too good to be true.

I walk over to the little wall and sit down on it.

I feel a hand go on my arm.

"I didn't know that was gonna happen" Mia says

"None of us did" Mandy backs up

They both sit down next to me placing their heads on my shoulders.

"I know this is a stupid question but are you ok" Mandy asks

I couldn't reply.

I mean how do you reply when there are no words to describe how I feel.

Oh yeah I'm in shock and I don't know if I wanna lose my mind or scream this place down.

"I-"

That's all I could get out.

I wasn't crying cause I mean what's the point.

We weren't together.

Out of it all I felt crushed.

Like someone just destroyed a puzzle you've been working on for a while now.

But then the anger settles in and you can't tell if you want to rip someone's head off.

Who else was in on it