I have always wanted to be alone. It seemed much better. No one could hurt me. I dont need any friends, and I don't want them either. They are just nuisance to me. I was still new at a school called Shoreline, I would always attend lessons in the school while I'm dressed in black, since the school allows us to wear what we want, no uniforms. People would approach me, but I would just ignore them.
Sometimes, I think that I don't belong to this world, I never seemed to fit in. Soon, I realized that people started avoiding me, not that it's new anyway. People think that I'm a scary person due to my clothings and my actions. I would always sit at the corner and read books. I finally realized, I'm an emo. My parents died in a car accident, thus I was raised by my auntie. I have my gratitude for her, a lot actually. Though it breaks my heart to see teenagers having such loving parents. It just doesn't seem fair. But life is unfair, so there's nothing I can do about it.
One day, we had two transferees. Their names were Daniel and Elaina, said to be childhood friends. Within a day, they were already popular. Not that it's a surprise, they are beautiful, they even look good together. People would always surround them. Elaina seemed like a cheerful person while Daniel seemed like the kind but cool type.
I was eating alone at the lunch table when Elaina and Daniel appraoched me. Elaina said "Hi! My name's Elaina! What's yours? Why are you always alone? Don't you have friends?" I intended to ignore her but Daniel said, "At least, tell us your name.."
"My name is Emily," and that's was all I've told them.
Elaina smile and replied, "It's a pleasure to meet you, Emily!Why are you always alone? Where are your friends?" She asked again while she sat down beside me.
"I don't have any friends," I simply announced out to the both of them. Daniel, who sat in front of me, sniggered, "Miss Emily is an Emo, i see.."
Elaina giggled and said, "We can be your friends!"
Friends....what are they again? I forgot. It's been a long time since I last had any friends. Friends are people you can count on.
Friends are nesessary in life, but what good will they do?
Daniel told me, as though he read my mind, "We can help you, if you have any problems.."
"Yeah! That's what friends are for after all!" Elaina told me cheerfully.
I thought for a while. Friends, they will eventually leave you after they're done with you. If they got sick of you, they'll leave and find another friends. I looked at the both of them and thought: Can i trust them? Then, I finally said, "Sorry, but I'm fine being alone."
Daniel was staring at me, maybe he was trying to figure me out.
Elaina pouted and asked, "but why not?!"
"Friends are a nuisance.." I answered Elaina's question.
Daniel smirked and said, "Good luck with your life then. With your attitude, no one will want to be your friend" he stood up and continued, "We all need someone to count on if you still don't realize that then you're an idiot." and thus, he left.
Elaina stood up. "I hope we can be friends," she walked behind Daniel.
I stared at my lunch and I thought: Am I wrong to protect myself? I–I'm scared of being hurt. Am I wrong to play safe?
And then, I thought of what had happened to me in the past......
After school, I was hanging out with my friends at a café. One of them suddenly asked me, "Hey, Emily! Can you help us do our assignments?"
I looked at her and replied, "Sorry, but I don't know much about what to do for I wasn't listening to the teacher in class," I smiled embarrassingly.
"Ohh." They looked at each other. Then, one of them announced, "We have to go, we're going to a party." Both of them stood up, preparing to leave. I stood up as well, and asked, "Wait! Can I come along with you both?" They laughed and one of them said, "Sorry but ugly girls are not invited!"
I stared at the doorway. I couldnt believe what had just happen. Their sudden change of behavior was... horrible. I thought to myself: Did i do something wrong?
I sat back down, still in shock, tears was strolling down on my cheeks......The next day after that, I found out that my parents died from a car accident. I cried alone every night in my room until my auntie came to get me. Even though she doesnt love me, im still thankful to her. She was there when no one else's was. I started highschool at a very pandemonium school called Southwest High. I had a lots of friends, but when i had a boyfriend which was a popular guy, all my friends started hating me but i didnt care since i had my boyfriend. We hung out almost every second of everyday. We were always seen together but few months later, I saw him with another girl, she was pretty, i could say she's prettier than me. I didnt mind them together at first but my boyfriend paid less attention to me and started hanging out with the girl. One day, My boyfriend confronted me and said "I'm sorry but I don't feel attracted to you anymore" I didnt say anything, I just cried in front of him. He hugged me and said "I'm sorry." Then he left and went back to the girl. I was crushed, I cried every night, thinking that my life is the worst among the worst. I even tried to kill myself but my auntie stopped me, saying that i'm still young and i have a future.
Then I thought back of the present......
That was why I didn't have any friends. I didnt need them and no one wanted to be my friend since then. Now that someone actually wants to be my friend, I don't know what to do or how to react. Should I be friends with Elaina and Daniel? Or should I just be like my old self, always alone...
<Ending will be written or thought of by the Readers. Im sure it would be more fun if everyone had their own endings. Whether Emily's going to be friends with Elaina and Daniel OR she's going to stay alone like what she's used to.>
