𝕵𝖚𝖘𝖙 𝕱𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖘...

Chapter 16: My thoughts and my Actions POV: Lucas

"I want to hide my pain and suffering from her, but I need help right now." -Lucas Anderson

I finally woke up and she's panicking...

"Dela? Are you alright?" I said as I slowly began to wake up, rubbing my eyes. My vision still blurry. My voice came out deep and a bit raspy."Y-yeah? I'm fine." I knew that was a lie, she didn't sound okay. Did she remember everything that she did? Did she remember what I did last night to her?! She said quietly as she saw me slowly getting out from her bed, I had just woken up and I really wasn't ready to deal with Dela's attacks but I still was going to be there for her if she needed me, my white button down shirt was a bit messy and ruffled, some buttons were undo. And my pants had no belt, I took it off to be comfortable in bed, and well because she was laying on me, I took it off for her to be comfortable. I slowly walked closer to her and I heard her whined a bit. 'Is she okay, shit. I don't think she feels comfortable with me if she remembered what happened last night. Oh, or maybe its because Devin came back, that no good mother fucker.' "Hey, Dela what's wrong? Did Devin come back and do something to you?" My tone of voice was worried, I wanted to make sure first it wasn't Devin that did something to her before even thinking I made her uncomfortable.

She slowly shook her head. Then I decided to walk closer to her, just testing the waters. I began couching down near her as I tucked a piece of hair behind her ear, trying to make her know that she can be okay with me, comfortable with me, at ease and be vulnerable with me. Well, she was quiet vulnerable with me last night. "Are you sure Dela? You seemed scared. Tell me what's wrong." I said as I then sat down in-front of her taking her hands as she tired pealing the skin off her thumb and I am going to stop her from doing that. "Nothing. It's nothing." She said as she took back her hands wrapping them around her body. I was confused now, if not Devin, then who. I mean I didn't do anything last night to her, but maybe just maybe she could had felt comfortable from waking up in the same bed as me, when she was being drunk. I mean when that happens most people had sex the night before... Ohhhhh. I can see why she is like this. Does she think we had sex? I mean, I want to... but only if she is comfortable. I would never do something to Dela if she doesn't want to, of if she was in such a vulnerable position that she can't say no. I want her sober when we make the decision. But I don't think that would happen she has a boyfriend. "Whoa, Dela. You don't think we had...sex right?" I chuckled as I examined her face, it still had traces of tiredness, but she looked much better than last night. Then her eyes widen.

"No... wait we didn't?" She asked as I tried again to gently grab her hands, and she actually let him this time. I slowly brought them up to my lips, I wanted to kiss them so bad, to go up her arm slowly to reach her neck, her chin, her jawline, her lips... but I lowered them down. This was not the time, she is just trying to figure out what happened last night, and I am going to help her."No, Dela. We didn't have any sex. I swear. Don't you remember what happened last night?" I asked as my thumbs caressed her hands. My voice strained when I said sex, now I really had to keep myself together. I mean, last night I felt so close to losing it, how she acts with me when she's drunk. It's almost like she's in love with me. "No... I don't. Is that bad? The only thing I remember was getting drunk. Lucas I didn't do anything right, please tell me I didn't. Oh God if Devin finds out about this?!" I could see panic start to rise again in her face, how her breath started to pick up. How tears were bringing to well up in her eyes, I needed to stop this. I did not want her to have anxiety, I wanted her to be calm. Then quickly I was brought her into a hug, as I spoke to her in a calm tone, one that she always found soothing. "Shh, Dela. You're okay. I promise just calm down for me...princess. Come on take deep breath's with me." I said letting out a flirtatious nickname for her. But I always had called her these nicknames, thats why she doesn't put so much attention to them. She said one day calling her these nicknames made her feel loved and calm, so I will not ever stop doing what makes her feel safe. "There we go, good girl. You're doing such a good job. Now listen. We didn't do anything, and you didn't do anything. I just brought you back home from the party then you asked me to stay over the night so I did." I again spoke to her. My lips where slightly brushing against her ear. Oh how I wanted to place soft kisses on them.