Evan 'Buck' Buckley oneshots

you found him

so this is like if when the tsunami happened and buck was having some sort of panic attack, eddie helped instead of every1 else and that's when buck said he should be mad at him n yk?
anywho, on w it ig?

~b u c k~
He's there. Christopher. He's here. He's ok. Why does my chest feel funny? Why can't i breathe? My legs. They can't hold me much longer. I need to stay standing. I can't ruin this moment with my pathetic problems. Eddie just got his son back, I can't make it about me. I always do. Stay strong Evan. You can't make this about you.

~t h i r d~
Eddie looks back at Buck. He sees his chest falling up and down, but to fast. Panic attack? He thought. Why? He can tell Bucks legs are about to give out. 'Chris, can you stand here for 5 minutes, I just need to help your Bucky, ok?' Eddie says. Chris nods and try's his best to support himself with out the help of his dad. 

Eddie sees Buck slowly start kneeling to the floor. Next moment he's hugging him, not saying anything just hugging him. Hugging him as Buck lightly cried into his shoulder, his breathing not any better. 'Buck, Buck? Can you focus on my voice?' Buck could barely shake his head. All he could do was whisper 'its all my fault. It's all my fault. You should hate me. I shouldn't be allowed near him again. Is he ok? I almost let him drown.' his breathing picked up again. So, pulling away, Eddie put his hand on Bucks chest and said 'Evan. Listen to me. Can you try to raise my hand on your chest?' Buck started off slow, but slowly he started to raise Eddie's hand and his breathing was better. 

'Now, what were you whispering about?' Asked Eddie. He'd heard a bit but not a lot. All he got was "my fault, hate me, allowed.. him, is he ok? and drown." He just thought it was muffled nonsense since Buck clearly wasn't thinking straight. Well couldn't. After Buck could think better, he finally answered Eddie's question. 'Christopher was my fault. I'm sorry, its all my fault. You can stop him from seeing me as I'm sure he will hate me. God, you should hate me. I almost killed him. I lost him...' Saying Eddie was shocked would be an understatement by a mile. He was shocked Buck could think like this. 'That's how he remembers it Buck, He remembers it as you saved him. Me and him aren't mad at you, we never will be. This wasn't your fault. You can't hold off a natural disaster, and if you can, teach me your ways, please. This isn't and never will be your fault. That's not how me and him remember it, we remember it as you saved him. You found him, Buck. I don't have enough thank yous for saving my Son. But i can sure as well try, Oro. Thank you.' 

(i think oro means gold in spanish, i dont rly trust google translate tho)

 Buck didn't fully believe him but, therapy's a thing for a reason. As much as he wanted to believe Eddie, he couldn't. He couldn't shake away the feeling Eddie almost lost his son as he was too busy helping other people. Chis was supposed to be his top priority. He failed. He failed to protect Chris. Tears started again and Eddie pulled him back into a hug, letting Buck sob into his neck. 'You found him, E. Believe me or not. You saved him Buck. I can never thank you enough.' Eddie softly kissed his head and started drawing circles on his back. Buck gripped his shirt tightly then let go before leaning back and looked Eddie in the eyes and said 'I believe you.' 

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short i know, shit i know. 

but whatdya think?

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