Self harm// Luke Hemmings

Chapter 5

Luke's POV

I woke up with wires in my arm and a plastic thing in my nose. I looked to the right of me and saw Alyssa sleeping in the corner with her phone in her hand. She loves that thing. I looked at the ceiling, trying to remember what had happened and why I'm in the hospital. Then it hit me, I remember feeling so alone and so done with the world I kinda just wanted it all to end and for it to all go away. I remember getting up off my bed and going to the medicine cabinet grabbing a big bottle of pills that I didn't even know what there were for. I went to the bathroom and took about 15-20 pills at a time and I then remember things getting a little blurry after I realized that I didn't want to leave yet I just had to call someone and the only person I could think of was at any moment in time was Alyssa. So I called her and told her what I did and I hope she isn't mad at me.

I turned over to see her and she was slowly opening her eyes when she realized where she was and that I was awake she quickly ran over to me and hugged me so tight and all I could do was smile. I looked at her and kissed her gently but passionately. She looked at me and began to cry.

"Luke why didn't you tell me you were going through all of this I would have been there for you to take care of you and hold you and be there for you. I don't know what I would do without you luke and I don't even want to imagine what its like in a life without you...I love you luke and your my best friend and my boyfriend....I need you..." She said sincerely

"I'm sorry I thought you'd be mad and not want to be with me I wasnt thinking and next time I think of doing something like this, which hopefully I won't, I will definitely go to you and I know I can trust you. I'm sorry Alyssa I really really am." I said with tears in my eyes but I managed to hold them back.

We hugged one last time and then the doctor came in to unhook me from the machines and to tell us that I was released and that Alyssa could go home.
The hospital recommended I go to counceling but Alyssa answered for me...

"He's not crazy and he definitely doesn't want to talk to some dumb ass counceler that he doesn't even know when there basically going to disagree with him anyways so no he's not going to counceling!" Alyssa said as her face was turning red.

"Um ok well we were just recommending we weren't saying" the nurse at the front desk said shocked to hear what Alyssa had said.

"K well no he's not going."
She looked at while saying and grabbed my hand and started to walk out.
"Come on baby let's go."

I waved bye and we headed out the hospital door.

She was driving so I just had to ask where we were going.

"Babe where are we going exactly?" I said with confusion.

"Were going to get ice cream then I was thinking since my mom and dad are gone we could put on a film and watch that with some popcorn and you can spend the night." She said.

"Sounds fun baby" I said excited.

We went to the fro-yo shop and got an ice cream sundae each and went to her house.
She put in a film and we made popcorn the movie was pretty long but that's ok cause she layed on my chest and fell asleep after she was asleep the movie was over and I decided to go to sleep too. So I closed my eyes and thanked god that I was still alive and in this world with my baby girl.

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