Thoughts

Existence

1.

I did not ask for this

A body?

Only to be harmed. Hurt.

Pushed to its limit.

Neglected.

I did not want a mind.

To ruminate. To worry.

Overthink until im sick

I do not want this life

I want peace and rest

2.

If I stopped breathing

Who would be the first to know?

Would they cry?

Or stand in fear?

If I stopped breathing

How would I know?

Could I feel?

If I stopped breathing

My mom would break

My dad would cry

and I would never know

3. 

Who wins at life?

Where is the goal? what are the rules?

How long do we have?

How do we score?

Please let me score.

I need a win.

4. 

I want them to see. 

I want them to know I made it

I want my peers to envy

I want my parents to brag.

but how do I get there?

I can't get out of bed.

I can't eat.

I can't call home

How can I show I made it

When I can't take the first step?