'Why did this have to happen?'
'Why am I so useless?'
'Kiyotaka....'
"K-kiyotaka..."
He can't be able to hear me now. Because he's not here anymore. He can't be able to hear my voice now because he's already gone...
'Why? Why? Why? Why?'
"WHY??!!!" As I screamed I couldn't hold back my tears anymore as I started bawling on the ground.
Why is God so cruel? Why did I even do to deserved this kind of shits?!!
My beloved Kiyotaka...
My beloved Kiyotaka is gone....
Do I even deserved to call him my beloved?
I know we already broke up.
He broke my heart. And chosed Ichinose over me...
But I still couldn't stop loving him, I just couldn't...
Why can't I just be happy?
I'm so tired....
If...
If I'm just smart and strong and can be able to protect myself I can be able to stand by his side forever he won't choosed Ichinose and we are still together.
That's right.
If I'm just strong....
Maybe he got tired of protecting me all the time....
Maybe he already got tired because he thinks I can't be of used for him anymore that's why he broke up with me....
I can't help but laughed bitterly as I cried on the ground.
Hah...! I'm really useless...
That's why people always can takes advantages of me...
I am weak...
I can't even protect my self.
That's why Kiyotaka grew tired of me and left me.....
I really don't deserved him...
So I stood up and went to my drawer and opened it. I grab the thing that I wanted to find and shakily hold it both between my hands as I opened it's lid, I smiled sadly as tears still falls on my face.
This is it....
Without him I can't be able to lived any longer...
That's right...
The parasite can't live without it's host....
She no longer have a will....
This is the end of Karuizawa Kei....
This is the last dialogue that came through my mind before I swallowed the poison that I was holding...
And everything went black.
