secrets we hide

new school

Cas takes a breath in as he stares at the building Infront of him.... a new day. his eyes tracked the brown bricks that the building was proudly made of. his anxiety started to spark again as he saw all the students... they all were at least a foot taller than him. why was everyone taller than him. he lets out a Shakey sigh before starting to walk closer to the building. as he did so he felt someone shove his shoulder and rest there arm on his head. his blue eyes rolled as he knew exactly who it was.

"lucifer." he cocked his head to look at his elder brother who had a big smirk on his face. lucifer shoves a pill bottle in Castiel's hand.

"you forgot this."

"thanks" he grabs the bottle and shoves it in his bag his attention turning back to the old building, mustering up enough courage to walk in.

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dean sat at the back of his class. his feet up on the table. he didn't have much interest in maths, he didn't see much point in finding out why Derek had five apples and why Amy had 20. it just made no sense. he stared at the clock watching it slowly tick. why was time so slow when your not having fun?

"ok class we have a new student joining us today. I want you all to be nice to him and treat him as if he is one of your own." dean rolls his eyes knowing for a fact this kid would probably be some boring kid.

cas slowly walks into the class holding some of his books at his chest. he could feel his heartbeat get quicker as he stood Infront of everyone, all eyes were on him now... why were they looking at him like that? did he look weird? was he doing something wrong?

" you go ahead and sit down next to Mr Winchester." cas jumps at the voice, he was so focused on the class he forgot the teacher was there.

dean glances up from his seat to look at the figure approaching him and his whole body froze as he stared at the boys very blue eyes, he couldn't look away. in fact he didn't want to look away. when they made eye contact dean felt butterflies in his stomach as they stared at each other for a few seconds before looking away again. was he starting to catch feelings with someone he had just met? no way. it was wrong they were both males. his father had told him that he couldn't be with another male. it was just wrong. he had to marry a woman.

as cas looks away from the boy next to his anxiety spiked more. why was he looking at him? did he think he was weird? did they all think he was weird?...

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after the first lesson that felt like went on forever cas decided to go into the bathroom for the whole of break to get away from the whole situation. he leaned against the sink and looked up at the mirror.. at himself. he was wearing a black hoodie that was slightly big for him to the point the sleeves went slightly over his palms. his black hair was a mix of spikey and messy. he had an ear piercing in his left ear. he sighs and looks down at the sink his vision starting to go fuzzy.. time to take his meds he guessed. before he could reach into his pocket he heard the door slam shut beside him. he quickly turns his head making his vison ten times worse. he saw two figures approaching his but his vision was so blurry he couldn't make heads or tails as to who it was. the rest of what happened was a blur.

after... however long he started to regain consciousness. he laid on his side. he groans slightly as he reaches into his pocket and takes out his medication. he was way overdue to have it. he takes two pills out the bottle then tosses them in his mouth swallowing them with ease. he slowly stood up as his vison was starting to clear up only to look into the mirror. blood was running out his nose and blood stained down his face. what happened? he didn't remember who did this. he used the water from this sink to clean his face before leaving the bathroom, quickly going to lesson and sitting down in the back corner trying not to attract attention to himself. he just didn't remember who hurt him nor why they would do this to him.

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dean watched as Castiel walked into the room. he immediately knew something was wrong. the boy had his hood up and head down, not to mention he was ten minutes late to lesson. once again cas was sat next to dean. his head in his hands.

cas sat next to dean and rested his head in his hands. he didn't want dean to see he was crying. if dean knew he would think of him as weak... but something tells him that dean knew that anyway. he just had to make it through the lesson without having a breakdown. he could do this..

his head jerked as a book was slammed onto his desk. he quickly looked up to see who it was and tilted his head. he didn't know this person yet they were giving him such a scary glare. his whole body tenses as he looks away, what was that persons problem with him?

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at the end of the day, when cas was walking home with his headphones in and his hoodie up he got stopped by the same boy he had been sat next to a lot of the day.. dean. why was he stopping him. cas slowly looks over at him and raised an eyebrow. he also took note that there was someone else stood next to him. he could only presume that was his brother..

"hey man, I'm dean.. I know you probably already know that but I never got to speak to you today.. but I just wanted to make sure you were ok. you didn't look great in English today. and I hated how Crowley looked at you." Crowley... that was his name? why does he hate me so much?

"I'm ok.."

"don't lie.. oh by the way this is my little brother Sam. we were going to ask you if you wanted to join us?"

"to where?"

"were just gonna go to the park for a bit, neither of us want to go home and dads not in, he's on a hunting trip right now." cas bites his tongue. he knew he had to be home soon and if he wasn't his dad would get the belt out again. he didn't want to go through that pain but he wanted to spend time away for a few hours.. what could go wrong?