Surviving the past

Chapter 1-

It was about 7:30 am when I went into my daughters room to wake her up. I opened the door to see her sleeping peacefully in her bed. The sun reflected on her bright pink curtains making the room become a cute baby pink colour. Her bed sheets wrapped her body and her pillows dipped where her head was. Her loose black hair fell off the bed and stayed still. I silently walked towards her bed and sat on the floor next to her. Her chest slowly rised and fell with her small breaths. I placed my hand on her arm and slowly shook her back and forth. "Good morning angel," I whispered to her. She turned over and looked at me. Her innocent emerald eyes looked at me sleepy and and a grin formed slowly. "Hi mommy," she smiled. Her voice was silvery and sweet. Her skin was a pale peach and she had freckles on the bridge of her nose. Her cute button nose had a thin pink colour on the end. She looked similar to me, except her hair. She inherited his black hair. "Hi baby," I smiled and opened my arms. She crawled towards me and leapt into my arms. "Are you hungry?" I asked her as I pulled her into a hug. I stroked the back of her hair while she nodded into my neck. "Do you want pancakes?" I asked and she looked up at me. Her smile grew,ear to ear, and nodded violently. I laughed silently as I stood up,her in my arms. I sat her in my hip and walked out of her room and into the kitchen.

Our house is a small two bed flat. The kitchen was a small area painted a crystal blue colour. The cabinets were an icy white colour with a cream colour top. Infront of the cabinets was a small dark grey,wooden six seater table with white and grey marble table set. In the middle was a bowl of fake fruit and a small cream candle. Infront of one of the chairs was a small pile of pancakes with honey and blueberries. I placed my daughter on the floor and she immediately ran towards the chair. "Calm down angel," I laughed and helped her onto the chair. "Mommy?" she asked. "Yes baby?" I said pulling my sleeves up too the crease of my arm. "Where's my strawberry's?" She said pointing towards the top. "Oh I'm sorry," I said and walked over to the small grey fridge. Once I reached the fridge door I opened it and a cool breeze brushed past my bare legs. I wore a purple cardigan and a small white top with white sport shorts both patterned with purple poker-dots. I bent down and looked inside. I grabbed the box of strawberry's and placed them on the side. I also grabbed a small pink bottle with a picture of sleeping beauty on. I straightened my back and placed the bottle down. Next to me was the sink. Behind the sink was a cutting board. I grabbed the wooden board and a knife from next to me. I placed down the board and the knife. I opened the pack and pulled out 3 strawberries. I grabbed the knife and began cutting the strawberries into thin stripes. Once I finished I put them in a small bowl that was next to me and opened my daughters pink bottle. I put the lid on the side and opened the small cupboard above the sink. From inside I pulled out a bottle of apple and blackberry juice and poured a little inside. I tightened the lid for the juice bottle and put it away. With a slight slam of the cupboard I grabbed her bottle and put it under the tap and turned the tap on. I filled it up and twisted the lid back on. Turning the tap off I grabbed the strawberry slices and walked over to my daughter. I placed a kiss on her messy hair and put the things on the table. I pulled out a chair next to her and sat down. "Where's your pancakes mommy?" She asked me. "Oh mommy's not hungry angel," I lied and tapped my stomach. She picked up a small piece of her pancake and put it infront of me. "Here," she said waving it infront of me. "Oh no baby I'm okay," I said. "No!" She said loudly and put it further infront of me. "Fine," I laughed and took the piece. I placed it on my tongue and chewed. 'Damn I make good pancakes' I thought to myself. "I need to brush your hair baby," I said and stood up. I pushed the chair under the table and began to walk back to my room. I grabbed a small black brush and my phone which rested on my bed. I picked up a couple bobbles and left. I closed my door and turned to find my daughter looking up in-front of me. "God ma chérie," I said holding my chest. My daughter just ran away giggling. "Come back you little monster," I laughed and chased after her.

I eventually caught up with her and grabbed her sides. I picked her up and spun her around in the air. I turned her to face me and began tickling her. "Noo!" She laughed. I clasped onto the table and sat her down again. "Now let me do your hair," I said still laughing slightly. "Awh," she groaned. She never liked having her hair done. "I'll make it like Elsa okay?" I suggested. "Okay.." she sighed and began to play with a bobble I gave her. After about ten minutes I had done her hair and tied it with a bobble. I picked her up off the table and set her on the floor. I bent down to her height and held her tiny hands in mine. "Now you go play ma chérie,mommy's gotta call someone okay?" I smiled to her. "Okay mommy," she smiled back. I pecked a kiss on her button nose and let her go play. Once she was in her room I pulled my phone out of my pocket and put in my password. My home screen was a picture of me and her. I clicked on an messaging app and clicked "cas". I pressed the phone and put it to my ear. It rang for a while before a deepish voice answered. "Morning loser," they said chuckling. "Morning," I laughed slightly. "You still coming for Emma today?" I asked the voice. "Ofcourse!" They shrieked. I put the phone away for my ear and flinched slightly. Once the voice calmed down I put it back on my ear. "You finished?" I asked. "Sorry," they laughed. "How is my little monster?" They added. "She's playing with her toys at the moment," I said and sat down in a chair,looking at her door. She turned around and waved at me. I waved back and laughed once to myself. "She'll be okay," cas said calmingly. "I know," I agreed and smiled. "What time you coming to get her?" I asked. "I've just gotten in the car," they said. "Okay I'll let you go then see you soon cas," I said. "See ya loser," they laughed and hung up. 'Hey!' I said to myself. "Ems?" I said,calling her. "Yes mommy?" She said looking at me through the door. "Aunt Casper is coming to get you soon okay? So get your clothes on," I said and stood back up. "Yayy!" She squealed and closed her door. I walked into the living room space and got her Disney bag. I hummed to myself while waking back and putting her bottle into her bag. "Baby?" I called. "Yeah?" She said through the door. "Do you want pasta or will auntie get you something?" I asked. "Hmm," she said. "Pasta!" She said loudly. I grabbed the chicken and bacon pasta from the side along with a small fork and placed them inside her small bag. I zipped it up and placed it down.

After a while, me and Emma sat on couch and watched frozen again for the 100th time. Emma sat on my lap while I lied on my back. Half way through the film the door knocked then swung open. "I'm here!" They yelled and closed the door. "Auntie Casper!!" Emma yelled and jumped up. She ran up to my best friend and hugged her legs. "Heyy!" Casper said bending down. "I love your hair," they smiled to her. "Hehe," Emma giggled. "Come on let's go," Casper said and picked her up. "Bye mommy," Emma said waving. "Bye ma chérie," I said waving and smiling. "See ya," Casper smiled. "Take care of her," I said sturnly. "Always," Casper said and closed the door.