Letters I never had courage to send

Letter 1

I hope you are in pink of your health. However, I am not. You have created a hollow within me that can't be filled even by you. I have always only given you love but you reacted with wrath and malice. Your life must have been traumatic but that doesn't give you the right to dump it on me.

You are vicious. You ignited feelings within me that you can't handle and I told you repeatedly not to. Lorne priemaza said once that if a guy can't understand economic pickup lines, he is not the one. I desperately hope that I had believed him because hể obviously knows better. You are not only toxic, but also evil. I don't know what sins I did that I met you. I hope I never met you. I hope you were not in my life. You ain't my hardin and you ain't my chuck because you don't care about me. However, I will always be Tessa. I will always be Blair because I am naive and intelligent at the same time. God gave me IQ but forget forget to give me EQ. If he had I would have left way back. My heart is bleeding as I write this but who cares. It's afterall okay to be not okay.

Taylor Swift was right when she said " Bandage don't fix bullet holes, you say sorry just for show. If you live like that you live with ghosts". You deserve to live with ghosts. You deserve whatever is coming at you for hurting me. You do honey because karma is a bitch. I won't obviously wish it on you because unlike you, I am not vicious .
May our friendship rest in peace or pieces because it sucked.

One day I will be an economist in big old city but all you ever would be is mean, vicious and evil.

Regards
Diya