Never Give You Peace

My sexuality?

Everyone is born in a state of grace but not everyone stays the same. Of course, most people's parents believe their teenage children are still in their state of grace, but they're most likely wrong. In this case, I'm not talking about what you think I'm talking about. I'm talking about sexuality. Most times its completely obvious their children are gay, some parents accept, other don't want to know, they ignore it, try to hide it, stop their kids from being themselves and to stay under their categorical label of their gender.

Growing up, their children start to figure things out, figure their sexuality. Of course most people stay straight but people learn about themselves and realise they are not what they thought they'd be, they're born different and they learn that whilst they grow up. they realise things they would have looked right over as children, not aware of their differences and their sexuality.

Not alone, they'll find people like them throughout their life and will meet people they love and people they become friends with and people they do not get along with, its normal, not everyone will like you and that's okay! In high schools people see that others have found themselves, and found out who they are. Some people get inspired, some people choose to ignore it or others choose the bully people for those differences. The people that get inspired by others dig into themselves and realise who they truly are. They realise they are who they are and they cannot help it. Some people can accept themselves and tell people who they are whilst others refuse themselves and hide their true selves, over thinkers, people that see other people suffer and get bullied for being themselves so they hide themselves to prevent others from treating them like they treat other people just like them.

But that shouldn't define who you are. People shouldn't have the right to tell you who you are / can be. If you're doing something wrong, learn from mistakes, don't worry, you're still young, there's always time to change the negative things about yourself. But do not change your whole self / personality for other people. If they make you change yourself, stop being friends with them, they aren't right for you. There are people who will like you for who you are inside. Even if you choose to believe it or not, it's true.

School is mad. That time of your life will be the most treacherous time you'll probably ever experience. People judge you there more than anywhere. You don't always get to be yourself and that's okay sometimes, don't pressure yourself to be what other people expect you to be and don't abuse yourself for not being what they expect. You should always be yourself and not let anyone else's judgement affect your mental health or how you should behave around others. Your best friends will tell you how to improve and most times you should listen to them but if they want you to change your personality then they are not your real friends. You should never change who you are for people, all you can do is improve. Your real friends should accept you for who you are anyway.

It is always good to focus on yourself but that doesn't mean you should be self absorbent and think you're better than others / bully people nor should you be rude / mean. You should always be kind to your peers. You should feel confident with yourself but not too confident to become mean to others, instead use your confidence to be kind and polite to others, show people you are a kind person and you won't get bullied or targeted for being rude. There's nothing worse than being an ignorant gay and paint a target on your back to be bullied / get 'jumped' by straight, threatening boys.

It is ideal to try to be friends with everyone and if you do, you'll never be alone for instance, in lessons where you aren't in classes with your friends like PE, you should make friends with the quieter people and just be friendly to all the boys but don't come off as too gay for them because they might get confused and mistake your kindness for trying to get with them. (it happens) Some might not want to be your friends, others won't like it and tell people that you're trying to hit on them and get boys to think that you're weird ect and they won't talk to you.

to break it down, the boys who are popular are the boys that are most likely to be homophobic and make gay jokes about / towards gay people. The straight, popular boys are the worst people to be around with if they laugh at you. The quieter boys are usually the kind ones. Make friends with them. The girls at school are harder to decode but if they gave either a fake tan, face full of makeup, false nails and chewing gum, they are bitchy asf. You don't exactly want to talk to them if they give you a dirty look, walk the other way. The girls who are nice and popular and are all over you instantly and introduces you as gay when meeting someone new is a red flag. Stay away from those girls too. The best girls to hang around with are the ones that smile around you and don't care about your sexuality and like you for you. Those are the best girls to spend time with / be friends with. They will like you when you're being yourself. And take a gay boy in like one of them.

It is hard to make friends in high school, don't take all my advice, I'm not trying to tell you who to be friends with, I'm just telling you my experience with people in school and how i made friends and how i got people to dislike me. As a warning to help you.

People might not like you for your sexuality. People might change how they act around you when they find out your sexuality but that's fine. I know it can be difficult but it is how it is, you can't please everyone, just be yourself and try your best. Real people will be supportive and like u anyway, stick with them and you'll be just fine!