HeartBurn

Chapter 1 and Only

It happens more than anyone wants it to.

Heartburn. No not the kind where you're stomach acid is burning the inside of your body,

The kind where your heart loves too much and it never gets any back.

It burns and hurts everyday.

No one sees this but it's there.

It's similar to heartbreak, but instead of you being broken completely, you are burned until you can't take it anymore.

Eventually you'll break down crying every night till there's no more tears.

You stop feeling, or at least try to.

Then after you move on from one heart burn, you think this time will be different.

This one is different, this time it'll happen, the one you've been looking for to cool the burning pain.

...

Nope. Sorry. Try again.

Heartburn yet again

This keeps going on. It's not going to end. You hope it will, but it's happened too many times for you to recover.

The truly sad part, is that your poor pained heart falls for the same stupid tricks again and again.

Eventually you decided enough is enough and decide you don't need anyone else.

You are single and choose to stay single.

No one well break your barrier, you'll be fine as long as you hold your ground.

Just don't lose yourself in anyone.

New years bring new adventures, New people, New friends, New chances.

New HeartBurn.

No matter what you do, you can't avoid heartburn.

You think your stable, but eventually you make a new friend and all of your mutual friends get the idea that you two make a cute couple.

You tell them no, that'll never happen, we're just friends, nothing more. I don't even want more.

But then you go home and start thinking. Man do you start thinking.

Once your day goes on, you ponder on your friends' crazy thoughts. You start thinking about that one friend.

"What if this happened? Could it happen? Oh my, this could happen... Wait but they wouldn't feel the same way anyway. No one ever does. But... what if their different. I mean this time they..." Etc. It happens.

Next thing you know, feelings develop.

You're screwed. Get ready for more pain.

Your fault: you thought they were different.

News flash: No one is different. They all will hurt you eventually whether they know they are or not.

You give some subtle hints but nothing works.

Instead you just make yourself more attached.

Why are you so stupid? This happens every time! You know it does!

You let your heart out of the cage you put it in and it gets hurt again.

You let your heart win over your mind and past memories of pain, hoping that this time will be different, that you'll find the one.

The one that'll take away every pain of the past.

The one you crave for.

The one that you desire more than anything in the world.

The one that you want to keep and never lose, because you're afraid you'll never find another.

You're afraid of having yet another HeartBurn.

You're afraid to have one? Then why so you keep doing this to yourself?

Oh right. You let your heart win.

When in the end, you lose.

You will suffer your loss with your burning pain that never ends.

HeartBurn.