Johnny POV
I pulled up my flared pants and walked into the Curtis House with Dallas following.
"Merry Christmas!" Soda howled.
"Christmas." I mumbled..
"Come on Johnny! We are gonna do gifts, we got you a good one." Two winked.
"I told you I don't want any!" I moaned.
"Cheer up!" Dal picked me up and sat down holding me.
"Whatever!!" I whispered, still to shy.
After they all opened theirs it was my turn. I was nervous by the looks on their faces.. I opened the box and instantly got upset. How could they?!
This was insulting.. What bastards!
There laid A FUCKING MEGAPHONE with a note tied to it saying..
"So we can hear you better! Stop being a pussy!" ~Soda/Darry/Two/Pony/Steve
"I can talk just fine.." I deepened my voice..
"Wow, the pussy got tough!" Two laughed.
"Lay off!" Darry warned him.
"Leave him alone." Dal glared.
I stood up. Furious I slammed the megaphone across the room, busting it into a million pieces. Shocking! Then I walked right up to Two..
"Johnny!?" He chuckled.
"I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT THIS WAY.. I know its not alright! I know I'm quite and hide behind anybody! I know I cry too often for a Greaser! I know I can't cut anyone or be in a fight without backing out like a chicken! I know I suck!!" I screamed, they all went silent.
"Johnny.. Calm down!" Pony stood up slowly.
"YOU ALL ASSUME I WANNA DIE! YOU ALL THINK I WANNA BE IN THIS GANG?!" I yelled, busting my voice..
"Johnny! Man, breath!" Dal stood up as well.
"I don't know what's worth fighting for! Or.. Why I have to scream?! I have no idea why I instigate or say what I really don't mean!" I was so pissed!
"Dude. We were just kidding.." Two tried to hug me but I threw him back.
"NO! You wanna see me FUCKIN' grow up? Here you go! I'm louder, tougher, and I'll fight you just like anyone in this room. BASTARD!" I screamed.
"Wtf.. Johnny calm.." Two tried to help me breath but I just backed up.
"No.. No!" I screamed again.
I backed up enough to fall over the coffee table and land in Soda's arms. A sharp pain hit me.. I was crying! NO!
"Your boyfriends not ok!" Soda tried to joke.
"I can see that bozo." Dal cursed, and walked to me.
"Back off!" I switched my blade and aimed it at every one, making them startled.
"Johnny Cakes!" Pony cried.
"Drop the blade man!" Steve ordered.
"Johnny you need to talk?" Darry asked, more like telling me to go outside and talk with him.
"Yeah.." I tightened my grip and soon dropped the blade and dashed outside in the cold breeze.
I buried my face in my shirt and just cried. Cried like a baby.. Again.. I'll never be the same! I heard Dal trying to come outside but he ended up not.
"So.." Darry sat by me.
"I can't do this man! They don't get it.. I pushed and pushed and pushed, and never stopped. And when I go over the edge I'm considered a traitor!" I sobbed.
"Yep. Believe me I know.." Darry sighed.
"I just.. I just wanna be normal." I gulped.
"What's normal?" Darry asked.
"Buff, tough, greasy, rich guys. I wanna be that. I wanna be you man. So fucking bad!" I cried.
"Me? I'm not rich!" Darry laughed.
"So?" I whipped my tears.
"You're amazing! Just ask Dally." Darry grinned.
"He doesn't think that.. He doesn't deserve a shit like me.. He deserves Cherry!" I groaned.
"Ok Johnny.. Your killing me. Imma get Dallas, this isn't normal for you!" Darry went to get him.
"NO! HE HATES ME!" I stood up, shaking and crying like a puppy.
"What are you talking about?!" Darry asked.
I just shook and cried more.. I just shook my head and mouthed 'No please' to Darry who was too stunned. He just shook his head and looked confused and ran inside yelling for Dal.
"Johnny?!" Dal came rushing outside.
"NO!" I screamed and cried harder.
"Doll! I don't hate you!" Dal rushed to me.
I just ran, ran like the devil was after me. I ran but never knew where.. I heard Dal following behind me, screaming and yelling. I ignored him and tripped over my boots and fell to the ground, scraping my face.
"JOHNNY!" Dal cursed and picked me up.
"Dallas.." I cried.
"What were you thinking!?" He groaned.
"I dunno! I love you man, but I'm not yours.. Cherry deserves you!" I say, but my throat bit me.
"Nah.. Cherry is some stuck up Soc. Ain't nobody like a girl like that! Besides Bob.." Dal joked.
"Yeah..?" I mumbled, I didn't realize he was walking to the snowy lot.
"Yeah." Dal agreed and sat down on the car seats.
"Dal, your too sweet!" I giggled!
"I know." He winked.
We had a laughing fit and the sun started to melt the snow a bit. The gang soon arrived at the Lot and we all just sat around a fire Darry got going. Laughing and apologizing.
"For once I found my purpose. My reason to live. I was 16 when I found mine. You have to wait until the time is just right! You could be 95! Who knows. Keep pushing!" -Johnny Cade (From this book)
Stay gold....
Author note;
I wrote this to show you don't need parents to guide your way. A lover, friend, or pet could do that! Parents suck man, but you'll make it through! LOVE YOURSELF.
Do it for Johnny!
Do it for Dally!
Don't do it for Bob!
♥The END♥
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