THE ONE I CAN'T Love.

Him

(I will be referring to him as sunshine)

Sunshine has been given this nickname because he is like the sun,
- he lights up a room
- he has a golden glow about him
- he has golden retriever energy
- he's like a ball of happiness

Sunshine is sweeter than sugar, his smile is contagious, his laugh makes others laugh instantly, when looking at his eyes it's like looking into your future together but also,  when you look into his eyes you think this is the moment he finally kisses me with the passion and love you have always dreamed about...

And then his girlfriend shows up laching onto his side like a sloth on a tree.
That electric smile he had fades and turns into a fake smile,  you can just tell it's fake but everyone else doesn't notice the change not even his pick me girlfriend (not a surprise to be honest).
Ever since they got together he hasn't been the same he become more like the moon than sun. Sunshine isn't a beam of light anymore he's more like a gloomy, thunderstorm.

Enough about his girlfriend making him loose his true smile, here's some things about him...   sunshine likes rugby and the colours pink and blue. He has huge baby fever. He loves dogs and most of all his family. Sunshine likes photography and golfing - he hasn't went in a long time since he got with his girlfriend though. He's super smart but I always say I'm smarter, that gets him laughing again. He likes minecraft, gta and occasionally roblox. He also likes race cars. He's interested in the army and war, I don't know why he hasn't joined the army cadets like me - he would love it!

Something he doesn't love is me but i can't complain because I don't even try to get him to catch feeling for me, mainly because I am too  terrified to try - aren't we all though.

I used to see Sunshine everyday mainly because of school, i wasn't in a lot of his lessons so I mainly saw him at break and lunch. Whenever we saw eachother we would at least smile and say 'hello', now he only looks at the floor never having a chance to interact because he's trapped in his bubble, oblivious to me smiling at him or saying 'hi'. I've kinda stopped trying to interact with him, it's like I'm a ghost now. That's the most heartbreaking thing, it's like we never met, we're never friends, never looked into each others eyes with sparks flying all around, never once had a thought we liked each other, never flirted, never walked each other to lessons, never said 'Hi' before.

We're now back to strangers
I miss him
The Sunshine I loved
I can never truly love him like I used to
I just need to forget him now we're
Strangers again..