Taylor Pov
Baltimore, MD
7:20 am
I haven't been to sleep in hours man. I feel like a zombie. I'm cool tho, I was keeping a look out for Neiamyah.
I put on a simple outfit for today. My all white Essentials sweatsuit with my white chanel sneakers. I put my hat and jewelry on, grabbing my phone, leaving out.
I was still on the phone with Neiamyah. I wasn't going to hang up until she woke up.
I put my car in drive and pulled off to the block. I know I need to stop but I just don't know when I will be able to. I don't want to have Neiamyah in danger, especially since she's with me.
I heard her stir in her sleep. I hope she'd wake up soon, I don't want nobody else to see how pretty she looks in her sleep.
I put my airpods in and put my phone in my pocket. I couldn't let nobody see me simping, my playa card would be revoked. I need it just in case.
I was lost in my thoughts when I heard-
"Papa, why can't I see your face ?" Neiamyah's woke.
"I'm driving mama, I got you in pocket tho." I responded to her.
"Oh ok, You can hang up if you need to. Just call me back when you done." I heard her shuffle around and get out the bed.
"Alright mama, I'll call you later." I pulled my phone out to hang up and saw how pretty she looked with no makeup on.
"Damn you pretty as fuck ma." She blushed hard as fuck. I love her dimples.
"Thanks Papa. You need to focus on the road. Call me later." She blew me kisses and hung up.
I sighed heavily and parked on the side where the house is. I hopped and dapped all my homeboys up. I don't know why, but my mood kind of down tho.
I think it's because of Neiamyah. I think she got some type of affect on me. I don't know if I like it or not but I don't think I want it to go away.
I walked in and dapped everybody up. I checked "inventory" and the "packs" then went to go sell. I sat on the corner with the other niggas I trap with, looking at my shoes.
"What's wrong Tay ? That girl ?" Bunky looked at me knowingly and I nodded.
"We getting so close, so fast. That shit scaring me bro. I told her I wanted a relationship but I'm not so sure right now. I don't want to hurt her." I looked down for a second then stood up and shook that shit off. I can't be stressing bout no girl. I'm Taydogg.
"Seems like you gon ruin it before it even gets started." He shook his head at me and I waved him off.
I felt my phone vibrate multiple times and I knew it was Neiamyah.
As much as I wanted to answer, I knew she was just better off without me. I know it seems like I went through all that just to leave her hanging but I got cold feet at the last minute.
Eventually she stopped calling and texting. I put my phone on silent and went about my business. She'll understand one day.
I walked back to the house and seen Kita on the porch. She's a girl I used to fuck on.
"Wassup Kita ?" I smiled at her and motioned for her to follow me inside.
2 1/2 hours later...
As I was leaving the trap for the day, my instagram notifications were blowing up. Unfortunately, it was Neiamyah. I assumed that she was tryna get my attention but I was wrong.
Kita posted a video of us on her story and I guess they happened to follow each other on instagram.
@lovelymyah:
<| video*
you ain't shit i swear. you selling me dreams but still fucking dirty bitches ?? hope you wore a condom or you gon be burning. loose my number you fucking weirdo.
@tayboogwahood :
i'm sorry Neiamyah.
I exited instagram and instantly text Kita about her posting the video without my permission. Also text her about her supposedly having an STD that she didn't tell me about. After I texted her, I tried to call Neiamyah but my calls wasn't going through. I figured. I'm blocked.
I sighed and put my phone in my pocket, thinking on my decisions. I scared myself with the talk of a relationship and fucked up a good thing.
FUCK MANN
I hit the steering wheel and pulled off, racing on to (83) JonesFalls expressway.
I tried texting her instagram as well and it didn't go through. I went and fucked up something good because of fear. Fear of commitment. Fear of her loving me correctly and making me soft.
When I got in the house I stripped and got in the shower. I turned on the game but really didn't feel like playing.
I opened my phone and pressed her contact, hoping this time I would get through. But, of course I didn't. I was blocked and lonely.
Damn Tay... Damn.
Fear is one hell of a setback..
tbc
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