DIARY OF UNKNOWN

𝐎𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟒, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑

What's up, Diary?

It's nice to have you around. I'm Prae, and today was a real rollercoaster for me.

My day started off pretty well, but then things went south. I'm feeling pretty down about J, my friend who I've had a crush on since last year. I finally got the courage to tell him how I felt at the end of the last school year, but he told me he liked someone else in our class. I tried to be supportive and told him to go for it, but inside, I was crushed.

Over the summer, we kept texting each other, even though we probably shouldn't have. When school started again, J's behavior was confusing and left me feeling frustrated and hurt. I finally decided to talk to him about it, and he admitted that he actually had feelings for me too.

But even though J's feelings were genuine, they didn't match mine. It's been a really confusing and emotional time, and I have no idea what's going to happen next.

To make matters worse, a day before and after though had confirmed my suspicion that he liked another girl. The girl he likes is one of our old classmates, her name is X. We're both friends with her, but even though he said he doesn't know what I am to him yet, I could take a guess and say he only sees me as a close friend because I know he still holds feelings for X. 

 Honestly, I don't know what to do. I really want to move on, but I don't know where to start. I like both of them, but I don't want to hurt them both because of what I feel.

this is it until next time

- Prae