Chapter 3:
Falling
It's been going on for a while now. This Blurryface thing.
It makes me see things, and it wants to kill me. It wants to kill me inside out and take control, but I've been controlling it and lately it's been getting harder to.
Scary thing about Blurryface is that it makes me care about what others think about me and I don't usually do that. It also makes me see things like shadows coming to life or even myself doing somethings I would never imagine myself doing.
I decided I wanted to go back to my apartment and just sit there. It's like 12 Pm so I fluttered my wings and felt strength in them once again and slowly I began to fly again. I took my time to appreciate my surroundings and thought about the people around me. Like I imagined if I had someone there to love me. Like I'd probably die for them or take a bullet for them, but I'd also live for them. Even if that's harder for me to do. I'd still do it if the person is worth living, but I'm probably missing out on all my chances to find someone since I ignore everyone who comes near me.
I reached back home and noticed something glowing under my bed. I look below and found a glowing orb just floating around. I looked at it in bewilderment and as I moved away it came closer to me. Before I knew it, this orb was floating close to my hands. It almost seemed like I was the one who could control it. I felt that it was safe enough to touch so I did and as I did it. It expanded and I could see what's inside it. It looked like outer space. I saw the stars and just below the Earth was there. I wish I could go to the stars. Words couldn't even describe what I thought about the beauty of astronomy. I felt a sudden urge to stick my head into the orb. The minute I sticked my head in, I felt a strong pull from the orb. I closed my eyes for a second but as I opened my eyes to look around me. My eyes glimmered with amazement. I made it to outer space.
Even though I couldn't move this all was too beautiful to explain. I just remained still with the wonders of the galaxy shining in my eyes. I kept drifting around and looking at all the new angles that exist every time I drifted. I look below me to find the Earth. I couldn't believe it. This is actually real and not in my imagination, but I felt a clench in my chest and it felt like I couldn't breathe. I could run out of air any second and just die in outer space but I'm still taking my time. This could probably be my one last ride and then it'll be all over. I'll die in outer space. 'Help me' I thought. This was all I wanted in life, but I didn't want to die right here. I've always dreamed of this but I never wanted to die out here.
I felt the air leaving my lungs slowly and painfully and then it all went dark.
There was a part of me that kept telling me to wake up. I was assuming it was Blurryface but it didn't sound as evil. It took me a while but then I finally realized why I was telling myself I need to wake up. I was falling, and I was falling fast. I opened my eyes only to meet with darkness again but I tried to force myself to stay conscious because I could fall by the city.
I suddenly take control, spread my wings, open my eyes, and guide myself from everyone. I nearly bump a couple of signs and cars but I managed to make it out unharmed.
I decided to go back to the old abandoned building I always go to, but as I flew there I looked at my hands. They were smoky black, and I realized the Blurryface within me has awaken, and it's only a matter of time till I'm fully consumed by Blurryface. I never knew how to defeat it because it's never been this serious.
I need to stop. I need to stop thinking too much. If I think too much, it grows much stronger. I keep thinking about what will happen once Blurryface takes over. No. Stop it. "Blurryface will never take over" I kept telling myself over and over again almost seeming insane, but I stopped to look at the building. It's now different and it looks more ancient now. I looked at my hands which had gotten darker and I started to feel anxiety dawning over me.
Help me
-Authors note-
I haven't published in a while because of writers block.
Yeah sorry. Also I know I'm not updating Fangs and I'm terribly sorry about that too because I'm literally running out of ideas and yeah
Just saying that this fanfic won't be really long
Alright?
XO Latifa
