LEGACY || Jungwon x Engene

Engene's decision

What Jungwon said completely took over my mind until I fell asleep.

Of course, I had math club with him the next day...

Thankfully, he acted exactly the same as always, still a little pouty from the pool party. He was his usual haughty self.

Until the end of the club, when he asked,

"Did you think about my proposition?"

I almost choked.

"I told you I couldn't!"

"Do you really not want to?"

"Why would you want us to do something like this anyway? I thought you had to like the other person and that's why you hadn't done it!"

"But I like you, Engene! I've told you before."

I blush.

"So you want to date me? As things are right now, I don't feel like dating anyone, so..."

"No, not dating. I told you, it's studying. I can't do this with anyone else but you."

I suddenly feel my heart sink.

I don't love that man, even if he's a good friend. He's not my type at all, but to hear that he's sure he won't ever fall in love with me, and that it makes me the only girl he could ever be sex friends with, is ripping me apart.

As I'm putting my thoughts back together, I hear myself reply,

"I'll think about it..."

Along my walk home, I turn the problem around in every way:

Maybe I'm just this deep in the friendzone, but he is as well.
No one is taking advantage of anyone's feelings, just an exchange of good procedure.
I always considered my first time like a big deal, but maybe it never had to be, as long as it's enjoyable.
I don't want to betray myself, if I'm not ready I don't need to force myself into it...
Tho it's true that I'd like it better if it was with Jungwon instead of if it had been with this idiot of Colin.
Being with Jungwon feels very comfortable after all.
We're so similar I can roughly say he's like a part of me...

My thoughts turn in my head on repeat all the way to my home, until I reach my room.

There, I sit on my bed, my gaze lost.

I lower my head and look at my phone between my hands.

As my thoughts finally stop, a strange euphoria takes over me and my soul suddenly feels adventurous.

It might be the day's fatigue, but my mind feels strangely clear. I have nothing to lose!

I decidedly open up my phone and with not an ounce of hesitation, I send a message to Jungwon,

"Let's do it."