Secretly yours, [Slow Update]

Secretly yours: Fifteen

Guiltily innocent.....

The ride back home was quiet, no one uttered a word. All in their own thought. That's until Celia whispered to me.

"Are you crazy?"

My brows furrowed in confusion as i wondered what she meant by that "What?"

"Are you crazy?" Celia repeated again. "Don't play dumb, i know you too well. Tell me what took you so long to answer the phone call?"

Oh, she meant that. My palms began to sweat as i bantered with myself whether to tell her the truth or not. There's 2 ways this could go. One i could tell what didn't happen but I'll only feel guilty about it afterwards because I'm not one to lie to my best friend.

Or two i could simply tell her the truth which involves her getting even more pissed off at me. Not a smart choice but i decided to go with the truth. But i wasn't going to say anything about that until she specify what's she's talking about.

"Oh um, i had to use the washroom after." I tell Celia keeping my answer vague.

She raised one of her eyebrows in suspicion "Washroom huh, last time i remember i don't think using the washroom takes that long. Anything else you were doing that you forgot to add?"

"Uhh..."

"Darlia." She sighed giving me an annoyed look. "Its ok, i know."

My face immediately turns pale knowing that she gave me the chance to confess but i didn't "I'm sorry, please don't be mad."

"I'm not. Just disappointed."

Her being disappointed was even worse.

"Look, ill tell you what happened but not here. While their here you know..."

"Mhm." she muttered. "Every single one of it ok?"

"Ok." And with that the car stopped as it reach the destination of Celia's house.

We all bid her goodbye before she left and now its was just us three left.

"So Darlia." Delphine says while texting someone on her phone. "As i was saying before, the trip. Are you going?"

"I wasn't informed of any trip." Honestly, i was confused about what she was saying.

"The school wide field trip." Jude informs me. His eyes making contact with me for the first since we entered the car.

"Oh...i didn't know about that but I'm not sure yet." I was genuinely curious as to why Delphine was asking me about that. She's probably going and just wanted to make sure i wont be there to dampen her mood.

"Oh, you don't have to go if you cant." She muttered in the sweetest voice ever, it made me sick. This bitch. I go wherever and whenever i want on my terms ok. I wanted to say but i kept that to myself instead.

"I didn't say i wasn't going. I said I'm not sure yet. Big difference."

"Big difference." She mimics me in a mocking voice.

"Way to be real mature." I say while glaring at her.

"Guys, not this again. What are you both arguing about this time." Jude interrupts as his eyes flicks to watch us for a second then back to focus on driving.

I huff "Yeah Delphine, what the hell is your problem?"

"My problem?"

"Yes because it seems like you have a problem with every single thing i do."

"You bitch. I'll show you who has a problem." She glares angrily at me as she's ready to attack me from the front seat but Jude interrupts up. Once again.

"Can you two behave for once. God, it's like im dealing with kids."

"I was acting well behaved before your freaking girlfriend spoke to me." I tell Jude.

"Yeah and i was acting well behaved before you told me i have a problem." Delphine angrily says.

"Oh fuck off." I spat at her as Jude suddenly slams on the brake causing all of us to jerk forward.

"That's it. I've had enough of you two." Jude announces. "Darlia out. We're at your house."

It wasn't until Jude made that statement that i realized how immature we both were acting. So i apologize to him and made my way out of the car not before thanking him for the ride.

I've never seen Jude that pissed off before. Honestly it was scary and he's never spoken to me that way either. Fucking Delphine, always starting an argument one way or the other. I guess i get why Jude was so annoyed. He's got tired of seeing his girlfriend and friend not get along.

But i wasn't going to act all buddy buddy with Delphine for his sake, not now not never. But i could at least try to tolerate her until.

Until i don't know actually. I have no clue how long Delphine and Jude are going to be together and how long i can watch them be together. This rage inside me is only because of i wasn't able to tell him how i felt before someone snatched him. And now i lost my chance.

I sighed defeatedly as i made my way into the house. Everywhere was quiet and all the lights were off showing that i came home pretty late. I decided to make my way to my bedroom since there was no one around for me to speak to.

Took a shower, ate dinner and got all cuddly in my bed. I was about to drift off to sleep when my phone pinged alerting me that someone texted me. God, it's late cant they just wait until tomorrow.

I was tempted to ignore it but curiosity got the better of me and i opened my phone to see a text message from Jude.

Jude: Hey, are you asleep?

I contemplated answering for a moment before replying back.

Me: No. What's wrong?

Jude: Um.. i just wanted to apologize for tonight. I shouldn't have raised my voice at you.

Me: Its ok. I forgive you.

And i was being genuine about it.

Jude: Thanks.

Me: Hey Jude

Jude: Yes Darlia.

Even though he wasn't here right now, i could imagine the way he said my name, how smooth it would sound and made my inside tingle.

Me: You really scared me tonight.

Jude: Yeah i know and I'm sorry about that. I promise to not raise my voice at you ever again.

Me: Its ok, I'm not mad about it?

Jude: Are you sure?

I nodded then felt stupid afterwards knowing he cant see me.

Me: Yes, i can never be mad at you.

Jude: Me neither.

And with that the conversation went on for a while until we both felt tired and bid each other goodnight.

I really wanted him to say something, anything about what happened earlier but he didn't. My mind drifted off to the image of me and him holding each other so close in the restaurant with no space between us. My face began to heat up just thinking about it.

And that night, lets just say i got little to no sleep.

A/N: This chapter is a bit boring but I'll try to spice things up in the next one. Also, you might find some parts cringe but just a reminder that we all act immature sometimes. I do too.

Ikraam.