*hyunlix*soft for you~

EXHAUSTED

"Felix was confused for his feelings...."

Hyunjin got home after the comfort moment with Felix, hyunjin didn't know why he suddenly cried there on the roof but it had to be. the pressure, work, stress everything was causing too much pain to the older, he didn't even thought about himself, not ever in his life he wanted happiness but today he really need

'I really need'

'I want to live a normal l-life'

'I'm a h-human too'

'why is there so much s-struggles in my life'

'I never wanted this'

By this hyunjin broke down again in his room locking himself, hyunjin cried for almost an hour and half, while crying ,many intrusive thoughts went through his mind but he ended up doing nothing, he felt weak, he felt disgusted by himself, he felt useless

'I'm useless'
'I'm pathetic'
'I'm worthless'
'I don't deserve happiness'
'why'
'why'
'why'
'why'
'why'
'why'
'why'
'why'
'why'

'WHY'

'do I really don't deserve it'

Hyunjin felt he'd end up crying all night long, hyunjin can't help but think about everything what has he face......many strangles, many struggles, many people, his past, his parents, his family, his world, the fire

'Everything'

Hyunjin didn't move a inch from his last position. He was still on the cold floor legs close to his chest arms wrapping his head alone with his joint knees .hyunjin can't help but to cry, he was letting it all out after the prolonged period of time . After some time when he felt weakness, drowsiness, tiredness take over him, he let all those emotions take over him and fell into a deep slumber

In the slumber he heard 'shh I'm here'
He didn't had any thoughts but only to fall into a deeper and deeper slumber

Hyunjin's eyes fluttered open when the sun's strong rays fell on his skin , hyunjin started to remember everything which happened the day before. He felt like crying again but there were non tears left to cry it was like all the tears have been soaked up in his skin. Hyunjin got up from the cold floor and weakly walked in the bathroom , he striped his clothes and threw them into the basket full of dirty clothes to wash and let the warm drops of water fell on his skin

He walked out of the shower and looked at the time 'I still have some time left' he begin to wear his uniform, blew dried his hair and left the room, he looked over and saw his maids putting the breakfast on the huge table 'why a huge table when there are non people to share with...'
He walked down the stairs and started to eat his food quietly, he ate what was enough and left the house

Hyunjin parked his car and walked out of it only to see a certain male, hyunjin quickly shove himself inside the car again and dropped his head on the steering wheel 'pathetic am I...haa haa' he breathed out heavily and looked outside, he saw the male has disappeared so he went out and walked inside his classroom

Once he was inside his class room three male greeted him by certain actions

'HYUNJIN' said Lee know
'MATE' said chan
'MY BF' said changbin

The three male suddenly jumped on the boy who didn't had any strength left just to fall on the floor

Hyunjin groaned and slapped one of the boy on the head with not much strength 'ouch- '