Stay with me

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Losing your best friend is the worst thing ever. Especially when its the people they called thier friends that made them do it. I sat in the church pew crying until the smeared mascara dripped from my pale cheeks and onto my lap. I stared at the brown coffin that contained my best friend brent. The last words he ever spoke to me were "Be the change that saves people like me" I never understood what he meant until now.
He was gay, and got bullied severely. Sometimes he would run to me in tears saying that he wished he could never be born.
This wasn't his first suicide attempt either. He had tried drowning himself and also hanging himself but both of his plans were unsuccessful. He had to spent at least 3 years getting back on his feet with me holding his hand and being his little torch.
But this day was something I never expected.
This was the reality: My best friend had commited suicide when I could have prevented it. I felt so guilty. Staring at what i used to call my best friend.

After staring at the brown box the consumed my friend the funeral ended and we left to see where his coffin would be placed. The special thing about where he was being buried was it was under the willow tree at the cemetery where no one gets buried.
Once the coffin was placed in the ground certain people got to say something and I was one of them.
""Happiness depends upon ourselves. Maybe it's not about the happy ending, maybe it's about the story
The purpose of life is a life of purpose. The difference between ordinary and extraordinary is that little extra.
Happiness is a direction not a destination. Thank you for existing. Be happy, be free, believe, forever young.
You know my name, not my story. You have heard what I've done, but not what I've been through. Love is like glass, looks so lovely, but it's easy to shatter.
Every day is special, so make the most of it. You could get a life-ending illness tomorrow so make the most of every day. Life is only bad if you make it bad.
Love is rare, life is strange, nothing lasts and people change. Life is a game for everyone but love is the only prize.
If someone loves you then they wouldn't let you slip away no matter how hard the situation is. Remember that life is full of ups and downs, without the downs the ups don't mean anything.
I'm waiting to fall in love with someone I can open my heart to.
Love is not about who you can see spending your future with it's about who you can't see spending your life without.
There is no reason to cry, because I'll know you'll be by my side." I said dropping a the white rose then saying
"Bye Brent I'll always love you" then walking back to mum.