importance on Yourself

who you want to be

Who are you? The question is asked among those who are still lost, whom pages which are still waiting to be filled with ink. As life goes on , the pen shall write. When we hit what you would call a writers block , that's when life stops. When we think a chance of a new beginning is simply not possible. The reason we think we are not possible at a new beginning, nor new life is because we still hold on to what hurt our heart the most. Fallen friendships which we thought could last a life time. Relationships , tied bound by a rope until one lets go. To move forward we need to let go of the past , to find a new beginning, in our present which will lead to a future you create. some people have a lack of self control. The feeling of someone else being the author of your story. Control is something that can be obtained, when you push yourself to realise what got you in this very position. What drove you to be careless. What drove you to having no sense of hope. So when I'm asked the question of whom I am. Or more importantly who I want to be.

I want to be someone who can change someone else's life. Feeling that you can fix and be help in someone's else's life , gives you that importance. The feeling of , feeling like you mean something. That you're worth something. And that is the control that you have been so desperately craving. This can vary from person to person. When you find your light to your darkness. That's when you realise.

Who you want to be.

The feeling of not being loved or not being worthy , of love itself , can rip you from the inside out.
Life is short
But pain is longer
Life is learning to transform that pain
Into your own happiness.
The one thing we learn with living
Is also dying. We must accept we
Will once come to an end. Therefore we take risks. Those risks are paid with the price of consequences. Those consequences leave us stuck. And when we are stuck we cannot see.
When we are blinded we become oblivious of which path to take in one's life. The question is asked what to do in this position? Accept it? Incorrect. 

If you are blinded by your own mistakes you can never begin to see the clearer picture , once you're stuck in that darkness you must find that light to guide you out of that place. Which means the first step is to find that light within yourself. Your passion, your goals , who you are , and more importantly who you want to become.

Love is like a tied knot.
Two sides of the same rope bound together
In one place. Complicated to untangle but will
Eventually become loose if one side decides to let go. Once broken pain then takes control. The human mind simply locks away those memories they once deeply held with
That person they shared a deep connection with and tell themself they will find another , to fill in that gap within their heart that person also held. Life is like a clock. Time will never stop so why should you? I ask myself.  If we are so concentrated on the past we will never find the light. That light is simply within yourself which you need to find. That light has one value. Happiness. Once you find this , and begin to focus on what truly matters the most you will begin to find your place. When you find your place you can finally become to see the bigger picture. You ask yourself what's the bigger picture? That's only up to you. Only yourself is in charge of what you want to become. Pain will destroy you only if you let in, don't be afraid to let others in. Sometimes a risk is all you need , when there is sacrifice, of what you're scared of most , good will most likely follow in your path.  Most people reading this will probably think woah that was deep. But the one lesson I want you to learn is that it's not deep , it's called Reality.

I once Found myself in a Place I thought wasn't capable of reaching for a hand. My mind , my soul , I thought I wasn't worthy of being saved. I thought those people had won. The person who is reading this at this given moment in time , I want you to realise if you think that person who dragged you down have won then they have. If you let other people have that control over the way you think and cope with the pain they scarred you with , then those stitches will open up , and you will look around and find yourself back at square one. the one way to truly get over something is to replay those traumatising, sad and depressing moments that hurt you the most and stop and think. Is someone that horrible of causing your pain worth sulking over? Is that person truly worth every breath you take on this world , you were put on this planet for. No. They are not. they are probably out there laughing thinking they succeed, in destroying your life , and you believing so is proving them right. I want you , to get up , close this book cover shut, turn of your phone and get your life together. You are going to prove those who hurt you in the most best way possible.

Silent treatment.

this is one of the best methods you could use on someone who deserves it. The people who put you down , don't feel the importance you do , therefore they drag your confidence down , to replace there insecurities, with the importance they try to seek. When you open your eyes up , to the negative people around you , this will help you realise what is stopping you from moving on. I want everyone to stop and think. Why can't I move on from my past? . Or more importantly who. Bad things must happen for good to follow. It's the way life works unfortunately. With every good action there is always a price to pay because someone else is doing something wrong, and that's not your fault. The way to get that wrong , and chuck it out your life to find and figure out you are and who you want to be is to stop and realise and what and more importantly who is holding you back, and teaching what you want to achieve. If your excuse is "they came in at a time in my life when no one else did." then that's worth nothing. It doesn't matter what time that person , came into life , it doesn't matter what loving  words they flooded your brain with. What matters is to look around and see , who is worth keeping. The people who are worth keeping is the people who prove there loyalty to you through actions. Words can be hurtful , they can be powerful, but actions always prevail no matter what the outcome.

Remember that.