keep dreaming New York 💋

double trouble?

first day of highschool in America and im so nervous. i also cant wait for it, to make friends and imrove my language knowledge.
i pull on one of my new Chanel dresses, that is absolutely gorgeous. I wonder if it's enough to make people like me, mostly the popular girls. i can't be a victim for a whole year. i wonder if Jenny is popular but im pretty sure she is.
when i look out the bus window i find it standing infront of the school gate. i was so lost in my thoughts that i almost missed my station. i literally "ripped" my bag from the seat and hurried to the still opened door. i thought of waiting for Jenny or atleast someone that i know but after 10 minutes i entered the place. there were stairs and a schoolyard with marble plate round tables. i just walked trough the staring crowd and smiled at everyone who did it too. when i was inside of the building i decided to look for the secretary, since i didn't even know where my class was.
but seemed like i didn't need to.
"Oh who could that be? friday night was fun, agree?"
Charles turned to me with a stupid grin.
"dont get your hopes up about experiencing it again Charles."
i said with a sarcastic smile but inside i wanted to cry. how could i make such a big mistake on my first day already?
"leave her alone Chuck!"
a tall boy with baggy style and dreads pushed him from the back.
"this is none of your business K. it was her decision to sleep with me. why do you even care too?"
"you are not gonna take away another new girl away from me i will win anyway."
my hopes about him being nice faded.
"i already did."
"what the actual f? leave me alone, both. im not inerested!"
i stormed away and lucky bumped into Jenny.
"whoa calm down girly what happened? and what are you doing with Chuck AND Tom?"
"Chuck?"
"everyone calls him that, the name "Charles" is boring isn't it?"
"okay i actually dont care about those guys. what happened in Friday is in the past."
"not for gossip girl honey."
i realised that the people in the hallway weren't staring because im new. they read about me on gossip girl.
"shit!"
"pretty big shit yea."
in class i had to sit next to that Tom boy who i thought, tried to save me. i was hoping not to be forced to talk to him, but to my disappointment he was bored.
"so whats your name huh?"
he seemed so nice but i wasn't gonna fall for this. right?
"you can save this, i know you only want me to be better than Chuck."
i rolled my eyes and turned back at my exercise book.
"look im sorry that i gave you that impression but i just wanted him to go away."
"oh yea sure"
"please listen, i need your help."
"and why would i help you?"
"i will pay your rent for the rest of this year."
he smirked because he knew i wouldn't say no.
"you are trying to buy me now?"
"come on, its gonna fun at the end, trust me or not."
"okay, deal. now concentrate."
i pointed to his work on the table but he put his hand on my cheek and smiled.
"what the-"
"play! Chuck's looking."
"okay okay."
he smiled at me and i smiled back but i actually did. Tom is also very attractive, maybe even more than Chuck. i looked at him a few times in class and when he looked back i actually felt like blushing. what is wrong with me?
when maths was over, Chuck caught me by the door frame.
"Don't do this to me Violet."
his face was straight but his voice actually made me feel sorry. i ignored him and took Tom's hand.
"i have history now but meet me up at lunch k?"
"yea sure"
i didn't really have a choice.
at lunch time i wasn't actually hungry food, so i went to look for Tom.
"Violet."
it was Chuck again.
"now seriously what do you want?"
i gasped with an annoyed look.
"I want you Violet."
"everyone does."
i looked into his eyes and they were so real but i cant fall, no way.
"heyy, where were you sweetie?"
Tom seemed to find me, and that actually made me happy. it was better to rot with a cute skater boy than to feel sorry for a rich slefish "man".
i made a little smile and waved to Chuck when Tom wasn't watching. i should forget him and enjoy the new Boy.
Tommy turned out as pretty fun and i also got to know his brother, Bill. He is really special thanks to his weird emo punk style but still manages to be so pretty. 14 year old me would totally date him. I was so immature and wrong at the time. i drank, i smoked and i lost my virginity to a 17 year old guy. after that,i didnt drink that much alkohol and never touched a cigarette. of course i drink sometimes but i will never get drunk, even if its against the pain like it was back then. i was obsessed with britney spears and the thought of looking like her. i think sometimes when you love someone so much and want to look like them, you convince yourself that you do look like them. i also convinced everyone around me and they comapred me to Britney since then. I get what i want because im smart.
Bill also loves Britney Spears and that made us friends very fast. I also learned that the twins have German roots.
funny little coincidence, huh?