Hold my hand and breathe

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Eleanor's POV
I stood beside Noah holding his hand as Phil looks at the computer screen.
We were back at the hospital to get more updates on Noah's condition.

My thumb gently running circles on his inked knuckles as he stares at our interlocked fingers. I can tell how nervous he is, just by how tight he's holding mine. "Noah?" We both look up at Phil as he runs his hand over his grey hair. "It's spreading, faster than it should be." Noah's just pulls me into his side and burying his face into my shoulder. "Phil, what are his options?" I try to sound strong but it was almost impossible due to the awful news.
"Surgery. Noah, I know you're concerned but we need to get you into surgery as soon as possible. If it gets to your bones, Noah it's harder to treat." Noah doesn't move a muscle.
"Ok" I nod as a tear falls from my face. "I'll give you two a minute " Phil stands up and leaves, now it's just Noah and me.

"Noah, babe ?" I whispered as he slowly lifts his head up to look at me.
"Eleanor I'm- he whispered as tears stream down his heartbroken face.
"You're gonna be alright, Noah Okay?
Baby you're gonna be Okay." I said cupping his face in my hands.
"Baby I don't have a lot of time" another tear falls from my face.
"Noah, don't say that" I shake my head in denial. "I can't tell you how happy I've been since you reentered my life.
You're so beautiful and.... waking up to this beautiful smile is everything to me. I don't want to leave you, baby girl I can't go without you." I pull him into a tight hug as he sits between me on the table. "Baby I'm right here, ok?
I need you to be stronger than you ever have, you've overcome so much already. " his shaking lips sealed shut as we pull away, holding each other's faces again. "I'm so scared, Eleanor...
I don't want to leave you, ever again. "
"You're so strong, Noah. We're fighting right there with you, everything is gonna be alright." I kiss his wet lips as he nods. "I think I believe in- that's when the door opens.

"Will?" Noah barely said as a curly blonde haired man smiles sadly at me then Noah. "My man I'm so sorry " I step to the side as he comes to give Noah a hug. "It's spreading so fast, Will" Noah cries in his friend's arms.
"Let me tell you something though"
Noah meets his gaze. "You seen this?" He walks up to Phil's computer.
"Yes it's spreading, but it's all in your neck. If this was spreading to your chest or further, that can spread to the heart. The good news is it's staying in one spot, though it's spreading." Noah looks at me then back at will. "How long do you think I have?" Will crosses his sleeved arms and cringes. "I can't say much since I'm not a paramedic anymore, but probably a year? You know thousands of people have beat cancer, stage four too." I smile as Noah nods. "I'm really f*cking scared man" Noah puts his face in his hands as Phil walks back into the room. "Noah? We need to go"
Noah looks up quickly and looked horrified. I walk up to him and hug him tightly. "Don't let go" he whispered in my ear while holding me tightly. "God is with you, Noah... I promise you." I then feel Phil's hand on my shoulder. "We'll take care of him." I let Noah go as he holds my hand tightly. "Thank you." I nod
"Baby, you have to go" I tell Noah as he just looks at me full of sadness.
"When I wake up, you'll be hear right?" I kiss him one last time. "I promise you, I'll be right beside you."
Phil then brings the wheelchair over for Noah to sit. "Love you, Noah"
He whispers something back but I don't hear him, and out he went with Phil.

I turn to face Will who was watching out the small door window. "You're Eleanor right?" I nod, "I am yes"
"Hi Eleanor, I'm William Ramos." William was really a nice guy, I could tell just by the way he hugged noah.
"It's nice to meet you, William.
Thank you for helping, Noah and being here for him. He has nothing but great things to say about you" he smiles and waves. "Awe, well if it weren't for him I wouldn't be where I am today." I smile as he holds the door open for me. "Thank you so much " I quickly sneak out as he kindly closes the door behind him.
"With the cancer diagnosis and all, it's not the worst I've seen. I used to be a paramedic and a nurse so I'm familiar with this diagnosis. Noah does have a risk, but everyone with cancer does. The important thing is that it's staying put for now. We really can't prove anything until it happens and that doesn't mean it will.
People overcome cancer all the time, and mostly because of their faith. I was shocked at how many stories I've heard of people just believing they were gonna be alright and they were! So let's get Noah in that mindset too." I give will a hug and thank him.
"You made me feel so much better"
"See! That's hope you have, keep thinking about it. He's gonna be alright Eleanor....."

Will's words gave me so much hope and faith that Noah will overcome this disease, I just need to keep praying and keep my faith for him.....

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