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Camila POV

Hey I'm Camila and I dunno what's been going on with me.
My life is a big mess but I don't give a fuck anymore.  All I wanna do is light up a blunt . Shit like if I care what the fuck happens with Me I'm useless. But then here comes Anthony and tells me he needs me shit Bitch you lying I know you are.  I use to date him I loved him so much but then his ass cheated on my the 3rd time we got to together again I was done with his ass.  I have a boyfriend now named cookie or well they call him that. I love him you could say that.  Well I am feeling like shit and see here we go again

Anthony :  In everything u help me so much .
Me : um sure .

Before that I asked him "how am I useful then?!!
He has a girlfriend too her name is landy I really don't like her bc she use to call me her bestfriend but then she let Anthony cheat on me with her . But whatever.
He hasn't answered oh well I'm saying in my head it's not like I care he says he still loves me ha yeah right it's been two years since I've loved him and since he says that too but I don't believe in that. 
He's like my brother now I guess you could say that.
But now I have cookie and I love him too and even though I don't feel the same sweet love I feel forward Anthony.  Cookie uh sometimes I feel like all he wants to do is have sex with me bc he has been trying to. I say no and make up any excuse fast. That's why I haven't seen him in a week already bc all he does is try to take my bra off and he does after I say no. I hate him sometimes he flirts with girls all the time but I don't say anything I just do the same.
A lot of people tell me he's cheating on me but Idk anymore he always say "babe I'm not " or something like that. Well I'm getting sick of talking about him so yeah.

Anthony's POV

I love Camila so much but after what I did to her she wouldn't give me another chance.  She is so pretty with her hazel eyes and brown long hair and I hate myself for being an idiot and leaving her for landy . Landy is always with guys and I get mad but Camila is always helping me out.  I don't see how she doesn't understand that. I wish I could help her out. Her mom's bf abuses her ( physically)  I wish I could send my guys to beat him but Camila says no and that if I do that she'll kill herself.
And I don't want my baby girl dying.  I couldn't live without her she's to special. I just read her message and I'm crying. 
But I can't tell her that I am . I wish I could be by your side is all I can say but I can't she doesn't let me.
I hate everything camila and my drugs and racing is why I'm living rn. Landy hasn't even bothered to text me. Whatever I say.
I go outside when I get blunt out my pocket and light it up. I miss the old happy me.

Landy POV

I'm a Becky house and she had a pool party and here I am enjoying it. I make myself pass as single while we play spin the bottle YIKES I GET TO KISS THE HOT STRANGER !!

Camila POV

Millions of thought are going threw my mind rn and tears start coming down my cheeks. I miss my dad and sister I really do. They where the only ones who I felt loved by but then they left bc of my mom. I hate her . I really do and her boyfriend who uh I start crying even more when I get my razor blade and run to outside to the soccer field behind my house and run across to some trees and sit on my rock and cut 19 long deep cuts I cry even more.  Ten minutes pass and I realise what I have done omg Anthony can't find out...

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