[One year ago]
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She suddenly drags me to the school's rooftop. She shows me a picture of me and Kyungsoo in front of my house.
HyunJi : Please explain this.
Me : Yah, what have I done wrong?
HyunJi : (Pours the bottle of water she has been holding just now) How capable you are to shamlessly said those words.
Me : Is it wrong when he asked me out for dinner? Sorry but I'm not even asking him for this, he is the one! So please clarify before you speak and take action on someone like this!
HyunJi : Yah, *Oppa, good time you came. Is what are she saying is real? You have said before, that you'll never leave. [*When girls call boys who is older than them]
Me : (Turnback & saw Kyungsoo) Yah, Kyungsoo..
Kyungsoo : (Walking towards HyunJi) Did you believe what she said? I've never invited her to eat together before.
Me : Kyungsoo-ah, why..
Kyungsoo : (Cuts my word) I've never ask those things to you before. Plus, you are still nothing compared to HyunJi. So, please stop now.
Me : But Kyungsoo-ah..
HyunJi : See? So just get away, loser.
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Two of them walking away, leaving me. I don't know why, his words hurt me so much. I crouch down, with water dripping from my hair, and tears falling from my eyes.
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Along that day, I feel so desperate with myself. 'So, please wait for me a bit. Wait for me. I'll come to you when the day has come. As a promise from me.' Then I suddemly flashback those words, he said to me. Why did he just gave me false hope? My mind was full of question and that's why I felt my body is being thrown on the air, eyesight all black. When I open my eyes again, my body feel light, and see a boy in front of me calling my name, with a familiar voice. Then my sight went black again.
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Slowly, bright light breaks the black pitch. Seems like I just wake up froma big dream. Then I hear a voice beside calling me. I turn around and saw a woman with a crying face sitting beside me.
Mom : Are you awake? Ana-yah, you are awake, right?
Me : Who are.. You?
Mom : I'm your mom, ana-yah.
Me : M..Mom? But.. Why am I at here..?
Mom : You have been sleeping at here for week. I'm glad you wake up, ana-yah. (Hugs me)
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End of my mind flashbacking one year ago, before the accident. And two months ago, I hardly get all of my memories back. But it wasn't that good for me. Sad memories keep appearing. I really wish I didin't remain my memories. Everything past quickly. It's one year already. But seems like only my heart that doesn't change. Why am I missing him too much? I'm just nothing to him, so why did you miss *Babo-yah? Everytime I come here, rooftop, I'll be thinking back that scene again. Can't I just delete this memory? How I wish I could, so I'll forget him forever. [*Stupid]
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[Kyungsoo's POV]
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Me : Yah, you shouldn't play fire at house!
HyunJi : But it's fun oppa.
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Ignoring her, I go outside and read book under a shady tree. After a while of reading, suddenly I hear a screaming sound. I tilted my head to HyunJi's house, and saw black smoke coming out from windows. As I was trying to run in, but then a wood falls down, blocking the entrance. Neighbours all gathered, and soon the fire engine came. I keep crying because HyunJi is still screaming inside there. I keep crying and crying, until I saw the fire enginer holding HyunJi. Then I saw she keep crying, she walks towards me. 'Dad.. Dad is inside.. I heard his sound calling me.. He is.. Inside!' I shocked at her words. I quickly run to tell the fire enginer. But at the moment the fire enginers are going entering the house, it explodes. My eyes widen. Tears eventually fall down. I run to HyunJi, seeing her crouch down on the floor already. I hug her tightly, feeling the hurt she is going through now.
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I think back to my childhood, where I promised HyunJi that I'll be by her side forever. Her mother and father divorced when she was three. And then that tragic accident happened to her father. The only one she has at that time is my family. My family raised her until now. But that promise makes her become clingy to me. Thinking all of this, I'm sorry for the one I told to wait for me, Ana. I think i have hurt her deeply. I have no choice back then. I couldn't honestly tell HyunJi to let me off. Her father's accident has created a big wound for her. But I don't think I can't lie with myself now. My heart is slowly refusing to lie, telling me to go where I should, before it's too late even it's late now. That words I have said, even caused her got into a serious accident. And that was the last time I saw her, lying on the road with bloods. I felt too sorry for her. If I can turn back, I wish I can honestly said what's in my heart. So everything will not turn like this. Seems like I have gave her a big wound. Then I walk past my old school, where she would probably still studying at here. Everyday, I would past here. I only saw her a few times. Even I saw her, I don't have courage to reach her. My leg automatically stops when I saw her, making me think of those harsh words I've said. I will hide and just watching her goes like that. I can't do anything at all. I don't know whose promise I should keep.
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HyunJi : What is it that made oppa to meet me at here?
Me : (Holds her shoulder) HyunJi-yah, what I'm going to said now, you must clearly hear them all.
HyunJi : Yah, oppa. Why did you become like this all of sudden. It makes me a bit nervous about what you're going to say.
Me : We've grown up so much since then, right? And indeed, we should find our right path, isn't it?
HyunJi : What are you trying to say, oppa? Even we have grown up, there some things that will not change.
Me : You should stop all this now, HyunJi-ah. I think you have mistaken with the promise I made.
HyunJi : Yah, oppa. Why did you be like this suddenly? Didin't you said you'll protect me forever?
Me : Yes, I did said that. But, that promise I made to protect you like my own sister, not the person I like.
HyunJi : yah, oppa, you are.. Joking right now, right? Oppa is Joking, right?
Me : Sorry HyunJi-ah, I...
HyunJi : (Starting to tears) Yah, oppa, you can't be like this. You like me. You never like someone else, isn't it?? Please answer my question, oppa yah..
Me : I'm sorry, Hyunji ah.. (Walks away)
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-End of Kyungsoo's POV-
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I come to the rooftop again. I brought my favorite guitar like I always do, just that I don't always play it. I look at the compose book, and flip to the page where the last incomplete song I created is. While I was flipping, a small note fall out. "I think I've like you without any reason. But firstly, I'm very sorry, ana yah. Seems like I need to take back the promise that I've made for you. After the tragic accident happened to HyunJi's dad, I'm the only one she has left. I made a promise back then to be by her side forever since then. And that promise, makes her mistaken everything. I protect her just like my sister, but not liking her. I'll just simply explain like this to you. I don't know whether you'll read this or not. And when you're reading this, I think something really bad might be happened already." Tears starting to forming in my eyes. Suddenly, a voice calling me from behind. The voice.. Did I.. Is too.. Familiar. I stand up and turn back to see who it is. After I saw who it is, I don't know what the reason is, my footsteps automatically step further from him. But he walks towards me straightly and hugs me. Tears starting to fall more and more even I was in a shocked situation.
Kyungsoo : I'm sorry, Ana yah. I don't think I can let you go. I've live with a heavy heart since that time these one year I said those words to you. And that accident I caused, I though you would die at that time. But after I saw you went to school again, I'm so relieved that you didin't die.
Me : *Nado, Kyungsoo ah. [*Me too]
Kyungsoo : (Breaks the hug) I'm sorry, ana yah. But, could I at least tell you one last thing? I don't know what your answer will, but just... I won't lie against my heart now. The answer to my promise.
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He stops his words. After a few sec, he smiles towards me, and hugs me again. I hug him back tightly. The sadness tears that flow just now, turn into a happiness tears. It isn't that bad that I've regain my memories. Then he suddenly whispers, "The answer is, I've come to you, ana yah."
