The Journey of Finding Ourselves

Hiding Feelings

They all sat at their desk
Everyone feeling victorious after had breaking a perp & solving a case

They weren't throwing balloons in the air, but they also weren't sitting down crying either.

"Liv," "What's wrong?" Ask El

"Nothing." She said looking up at him her head in her hands

"Okay." Elliot said not convinced "You wanna go out for lunch later?"

"If that's what you want."

Elliot just breathed out & bared with her

"Thanks to everyone for being on their best. You may all enjoy the rest of your day." Captain Cragen said to everyone from the doorway in his office
He took a bow as if he'd just got done performing a show or something

Everyone started cheering.. All but Olivia

El, "You ready?"

"Mmhm." a getting up Olivia mumbled

*The Sandwich Café*

A waiter came over "How can I help you two lovely detectives today?" She said cheerfully

"I would like 2 orders of the blt, both with a coke." said Elliot smiling
He didn't even need to ask the sitting across from him Olivia Benson what she wanted. He knew his partner like a book, and that went vice versa.

The girl eyes lit up at how the man could know what the woman wanted without even asking her. She thought they'd maybe be having an affair and wanting to get out of work & private to spend time with each other causing them to be here. ...Who didn't.

The waiter left

"So." said Elliot "Tell me what's wrong Liv."

"Kathy."

"Kathy?" He asked

Liv sighed "When she left that day, after she, that situation in the squadroom, she gave me a look."

"A look?" Elliot asked clearly confused

"Stone cold hate." Liv cracked. She threw her hair down on the table. "El I don't want her to think that the reason her marriage is falling--

"Has fallen." Corrected El

"Apart is because me. It's okay when people think that we're having an affair or something's going on between us, but when Kathy thinks that why everything in her life is going down hill, I'm not okay with that. I don't want it to seem like, 'ooh there's the Olivia Benson who stole my husband away from me and my family'".

"Liv. You don't sound like that. Kathy doesn't think that. & if she does, then that's her stupid minded self to think the worst. You are a great person Liv, and if anybody knows you, really, they wouldn't for a second thought, think that you could do such thing. You're a genuine person inside and out and don't ever think or let anyone tell you different."

Liv was speechless she wanted to cry at how much he'd just made her felt like she was the most wonderful thing in the world. She wouldn't dare let that show though.

"Thanks El." She put on a smile

"Always here to tell the truth, Benson." El grinned

She chuckled
"Now, can we eat. I'm starving."

"Like that's a shocker." El mouthed back grinning

"Watch it Stabler." Liv glaring at him and smiling

Just then their food arrived at the table. They ate. Then he drove her to her apartment.

*Olivia was getting out the car*

"And if nobody in this world believes you, I do." He smiled looking up at her smiling

She smiled back down at him then continued closing the door

Olivia was walking to her apartment
Lately her feelings for him has been rapidly growing. Feelings way more than just a partner should have. Its getting harder keeping all the blushing & more than quick stares to a minimum.

*Elliot's Apartment*

As he entered he was in deep thought. Almost running into the door. He went & sat on his couch.

'I just wanted to tell her so bad how much I loved her and I didn't care what anybody thought about her, I knew she was perfect.' Thought Elliot
Soon after all this thinking, sleep consumed his mind.

*Hughes Bar*

"What is up with Olivia these days?" Said Munch

"I don't know, but of course that head first, partner of hers, Elliot Stabler knows." Fin said

He & Munch both collapsed of laughter

"Did you see how they was staring at each other yesterday?" A smirking Munch asked

"You think I missed it." laughing Fin said

"Those two." Munch said in a ending tone