Bloodied Love

23 and 22

From the day I was born till today, I've rarely gotten to see what's outside my own home, what's outside my room, whomever I could have met over these 23 years of hell.

Ever since I was 5, I always knew there was something about Jisung mother didn't like. I felt bad for the way he was treated those 5 years. I hated it. I couldn't imagine what it was like to be beaten so harshly so young. That was until March 7th, 2007. Little did I know that both me and jsung had something in common we still dont know about. The first day I was hit so hard, I nearly fell conscious. The day I heard my older brother screaming at the top of his little lungs for mother to stop. The first time, I cried for no one else but me.

My brother Felix didn't deserve to be born in such a cruel place. He deserved much more than this. From that first day, he was brutally beaten by Mother, March 7th, 2007, I knew Felix was too soft for what he was going to have to endure. I wanted to protect Felix with all my little might at that time. If only i knew what Mother had planned for us.

The scariest days of our lives, August 26th 1013, mother brought back two men after a night out at the club. How did she get the money to even go? We dont know, at least then we didn't. Turns out mother was a prostitute, and she wasn't getting enough money by herself, so she brought men... for us. At ages 11 and 10, me and my brother and I were done bad things to, for money, not for us. For mother.

After that day, Felix and I cried for days. Our bottoms hurt so bad we couldn't walk. But that didn't stop mother from beating us. She left bruises on my eyes and stomach, along with a couple burns from a cigarette, Felix was able to hide away from Mother that day, I'm glad he was able to. He's become an expert now and knows how to get away from trouble. I'm glad, now he's less injured then me, he helps to take care of me after harsh beatings by mother or the men who come to do bad things to us.

I remember hearing a word on TV one day when i was 11. School. I watched the show about school. School was a fun place in the show. I remember that same day me and Jisung hadn't received any beatings from mother, we assumed she was in a better mood that day, but we agreed not to say a word to her unless we spoke to her. But I was too eager. I ran up to her and excitedly scrambled words to her about going to school. After that day I don't remember ever getting such a bad beating.

At the age of 16 and 15, we realized just how dumb we were for our ages. Trivia shows that are mostly simple for people our age, can be extremely challenging for us. We've never gotten the proper education at any age. Watching TV was our only source of education. But we never had time for that, we were always beaten or done bad things to by men.

At the ages of 18 and 19, mother stopped feeding us. We had to learn to cook simple meals ourselves. And yet those were our struggle points, there were times we wouldn't have food for day because we simple couldn't cook or most of the food was moldy or expired. And even now we're barely getting the hang of cooking simple foods.

Just yesterday Felix and I looked out the barred up windows and seen and boy and girl holding hands while smiling at each other. They were happy! Me and Felix discussed that they night love each other and our probably married because they were holding hands.

We wish to be happy one day too.