Just another day in middle school. Annoying classmates, bad grades and no motivation to go on. School is such a drag. I'm sure that the staff members don't really care how the students are doing. If they did care they wouldn't feed us barely edible food for lunch.
Well the district is poor so it might not be the schools fault. We had a test in humanities that I couldn't even start because of how tired I was. We have to wake up at the crack of dawn to get ready and they expect us to be fully awake? It's not always our fault we can't sleep well. The best sleep we can get is 7-8 hours.
And even worse than that I have to put up with the lamest excuses of classmates. Especially the boys. You might think that they're just normal students, but you should never underestimate the annoyance of a middle school boy. I swear the only thing they find funny is being racist, ableist, horny all for a joke. Being around them makes my brain rot.
And my mom said my phone is what's making my brain rot. Not everything that happens to me is my fault. When will they understand that. It's not my fault I can't pay attention in class. It's not my fault that my grades are low.
Have you ever considered it was the environment I'm forced in everyday? Have you ever thought my peers were the root of my problems? No, and you want to know why?! Even though I struggle to talk to people and interact with everyone else it was just brushed off as having a bit of social anxiety. Has no one considered that I might just be different?
I can't learn the same way as everyone because my peers couldn't care less about anyone but their selves. If they did take everyone else into consideration they would probably learn how to behave. When will they realize that this sort of behavior won't be tolerated in the adult world? As an adult you must be respectful, responsible, and considerate. You're getting to that point in your life where you slowly start to become more mature.
When will you grow up and act like it? I don't even know at this point. Maybe some people just don't change. But that's just some people. Maybe when they reach their 30's they're realize all the terrible things they've done. Some people might mature just like wine.
As much as I appreciate and love my hair I hate styling it. I have locs and I started them in late summer of 2023. They were small at first, barely the size of a caterpillar. It's now 2024 in February and they're almost shoulder length. I'm glad im getting it done today because I am in DESPERATE need for a retwist.
My birthday is on Friday so I want to look cute. Also I'm tired of my hair growing out. When I can't even see my roots that's how I know I need a retwist. The last time I got my hair done it was curled. It was very pretty for a week or two.
Until it got flat again, but hey nothing lasts forever. The best part of a beauty shop has got to be the environment. You're surrounded by ladies under hair dryers, tons of bottles of shampoo and oil, and most importantly, your hairdresser. I think I've had the same hairdresser for about 3 years, if you don't count my mom. I would never switch hairdressers because that is one of the first rules of a beauty/barber shop is to NEVER switch your barber/stylist.
Well maybe that's it for this chapter. Weird kid signing off.
Entry 1- 2/20/2024
