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Ever feel lonely? Like you amount to nothing? Like you are nothing? Like authentic happiness is a luxury that you don't own? My whole life, All I've ever known was pain. Some people may say that my soul is just a deep, dark, void of loneliness. Sometimes I wonder why my parents decided to have me when they knew they weren't fit to take care of a child.
Ever since I could walk my mother would constantly criticize me on everything I did. She would always find something with me to complain about, no matter what it was. whether I was eating wrong, sleeping wrong, or even just living. You could imagine how those type of things would affect a 6 year old. Where was my dad during all of this?
I have no idea. All I know is that he was never there for me when I needed him. He's dead to me... Growing up in an environment with no present father and a shitty ass mother messed me up so much. I always felt like I would never succeed in life. And you wanna know something? Here I am. My fears have only become reality. And that was my BIGGEST fear...
Yes I have a job. it's not a very good job but, it pays well nonetheless. I think my job is my only escape from reality. When I am working, I am nothing like myself. There, I can be free. Free from all of my worries. Just free from life. I have no one but myself so I try to make it work.
I'm not in a relationship either. Something about them makes me feel odd. My mother and father's relationship was extremely toxic. After my little sister was born, things went down hill from there. My mom lost her job, and I got taken by child protective services because I wasn't attending school as much as I should have been and I was showing signs of being neglected.
And worst of all, I never got adopted. When I turned 18 they just kicked me on the side of the road like I was a piece of trash. They left me to fend for myself. That's why I've lost my trust in people. They always find a way to let you down as soon as you let them in.
The main question is,
Am I happy with myself?
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Hello
Yes this is extremely short but it'll get longer soon. Plus it was really just an introduction for 1 of the characters.
