Pursuit of Happiness | Taz Skylar

068. text messages

[messages between taz and jay]

jay
so how's tenerife?
it seems like zoe's enjoying herself

taz
i think she is
i'm taking her surfing tomorrow and she seems excited

jay
she would be
be prepared to have to drag her out of the water

taz
😂😂
can i ask for your opinion on something?

jay
sure

taz
zoe mentioned that she thought about moving to australia
do you think things would have been better for her if she had actually done it?

jay
dude, yes. a million times yes. i honestly don't even need to think about it

taz
well shit
i was kind of hoping that wasn't going to be your answer

jay
why

taz
it doesn't matter

jay
well clearly it does matter because you wouldn't be asking me about it otherwise

taz
it's fine
she's never going to leave you guys so there's no point in even entertaining the idea

jay
this sounds very similar to a conversation that we had after you and zoe broke up
should i remind you how that turned out?

taz
no it's okay

jay
okay so we'll try this again
why do you ask?

taz
i don't know
it's not that zoe seemed bad when she was home, but she seems to be doing better here. i don't know how to explain it, but she's even said herself that she feels lighter here
and she slept all the way through the night last night, which hasn't happened the entire time we've been back together

jay
not once?

taz
you didn't know that?

jay
i knew she sleeps like shit, but i didn't know it was that bad
is she out here having nightmares every night or what?

taz
sometimes it's because of a nightmare, but i think it's mostly just insomnia
she's always been kind of an insomniac, but it's so much worse than it used to be

jay
so are you going to ask her to move in with you?

taz
i want to, but it's not that simple
zoe's lost so much. it's not fair for me to ask her to give up any more

jay
who says she has to give up anything?
she has a phone, she knows how to use it

taz
nate and ethan are the only family she has left. she won't want to leave them

jay
yeah, probably. but zoe's done plenty of things before that she didn't particularly want to do

taz
that doesn't make me feel better

jay
you're not friends with me because i make you feel better. you're friends with me because i tell you what i think. and what i think is that yeah, she's not going to want to go anywhere that takes her away from us for any length of time
but i think she'll do it anyway

taz
why

jay
because you're the only thing she lost after the car accident that she eventually got back. that's not a small thing and she would have to know that. i'm not going to pretend to know what goes in on inside zoe's head but i do think that she would follow you absolutely anywhere

taz
i don't know
i can't help feeling like she's not going to go for it and i'm not about to try and force her
even if i think it'd be better for her

jay
you never know she might surprise you