NCT DREAM IMAGINES

14' It's Not Okay (Jeno)

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~Jeno Imagine

Idol au.

Friends to lovers

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Y/N's POV:

"So, what do you say?" I look at Jeno hopefully with puppy dog eyes.

I've never been this confident in my life, so you could say that I've used up all of the courage I will ever need, in this single moment.

"I think-" Jeno starts and that's when I meticulously stop breathing. I'm nervous. "Its okay."

He says, destroying all of the hope I had stored up. Now he's just left me confused because I don't know what to do with that answer.

"It's okay?" I repeat back questioningly.

"It's okay." Jeno nods this time. "I'm cool with it." He pats my shoulder, giving me his famous eye smile before disappearing into his practice room.

I'm sure I look like an animal that's just been poured water on because I stand here for a couple more minutes, trying to decipher what the heck just happened.

Did... Did I just get rejected?!

In the most confusing, unpopular way ever!!!

He's cool with it. He said he's cool with it. Like what is that supposed to mean?

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Jeno's POV:

I casually walk into the practice room to find no one there, which is concerning because I'm pretty sure I left everyone here a while ago. Before I went outside.

"Surprise!" The boys jump out from behind the curtains with confetti and champagne, dragging me further into confusion.

"Where is Y/N?" Jaemin asks after blowing a whistle he probably stole from the choreographer.

The rest of the members quickly gather around me as if I owe them something.

"Whats up with you all, what's all this? And why are you asking about Y/N? Aren't we supposed to be practicing?" I look past them to see no staff members or choreographer insight.

I'm pretty sure when I left here, this place was a dance practice room. I don't know how it suddenly became a party venue.

"Do you guys think he..." Renjun looks around the group, totally disregarding my questions.

"No, he didn't. Did he?" Jisung looks petrified.

"Then he's really stupid, ah. I thought Jeno was smart." Haechan holds his head as if he is facing a crisis.

"He is smart! But heartless." Jaemin accuses me.

For what? I haven't got a clue.

"Guys, guys, I don't think he knows what we're talking about." Mark rescues me. "Samoyed, Y/N asked you out. What was your reply?"

He gets straight to the point surprising me. How do they know about that? They must've been in on it. Is that why they have these decorations here? They thought I was going to say yes.

"I don't have a good feeling about this." Haechan acts dramatic once again.

"Why are you even asking, it's clear that he turned her down." Chenle says.

"I said it's okay. And that, I'm cool with it." This time I defend myself. Only that, I don't know if it's enough defense to protect me right now.

There is a brief silence in the room.

"It's okay you guys are dating now, or are you okay with her liking you?" Renjun breaks the ice.

Which makes me realize that I hadn't thought of it at all. What did my 'it's okay' mean? I hadn't put much thought into it.

"I just said that. Even I don't know." I come clean.

"Stupid!" Haechan says and I can't help but agree with him. What have I done?

"So, you don't like Y/N?" Jaemin asks.

"It's clear, because who says 'it's okay' anyways." Chenle mocks me.

"Do I like Y/N?" I repeat slowly. Still trying to process the question at hand.

"It's okay, if you don't like her." Jisung says something my heart instantly disagrees with.

Unknowingly he has started a trend because right after that, everyone takes a go at me, using my own phrase against me.

"It's okay, to just stay as friends." Renjun shrugs. On his note, I don't agree with him.

My brain is confused but my heart knows exactly what it wants. It's just that, I think with my head, not heart. Unfortunately for today, my mind doesn't seem to be working either.

"It's okay, you're just slow." Chenle goes next, shaking his head in the process. I can tell that he is disappointed.

"It's okay, maybe you'll like someone one day." Jaemin sighs.

"It's okay, I'll support you no matter what." Mark being the only positive one makes the others groan in disappointment at him now.

"It's okay, if you don't like her. I'll ask her out instead." Haechan surprises me with his statement.

I knew that he was going to be the most shrude one, but I didn't know that he'd go this far.

"No, it's not okay." I strongly disagree with him. "I know I made a mistake because I was stupid and lost, but you guys know I like Y/N. That is why your'll encouraged her to take the initiative."

"I hadn't fully accepted it yet but now I realize it. I'm actually in love with Y/N." I finally muster up the courage to say. It's so easy now that I've finally admitted.

"I love her." I run my hand through my hair, remembering that I should've told her that in the first place. "Probably way longer and way more than she loves me. I should've told her that."

Looking back up at them, I realize that they've been awfully silent. Maybe it was because of my little speech, but I'd like to think otherwise because they're looking past me.

I turn around to follow the new attention and standing behind me is Y/N.

Did she just hear everything?

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Y/N's POV:

"I-..." I stand awkwardly, unable to say anything after what I've just heard. "The choreographer said that practice is in 10 minutes."

Jeno's eyes meet mine and I suddenly feel even more awkward. Ugh, just yesterday we were best friends, what is going on now?!

"Come on guys, let's leave them alone." Renjun claps his hands together.

"Wait," Jeno says not tearing his gaze away from me. "I want everyone to hear it."

"Y/N, I love you. Will you please be my girlfriend?" He says, leaving my heart thumping in my chest. I think everyone can hear it.

"I-" I almost accept it because of how cool and sincere he sounds, but then I remember his statement earlier.

Despite also being in love with him, I'm still his petty best friend. So I shrugs my shoulders, "It's okay, I'm cool with it."

The members burst out laughing and surprisingly, Jeno does too.

"Okay, jokes aside." I announce. "Yes Samoyed, I'll be your girlfriend." I proceed to kiss his cheek.

I'm about to let go, but he holds me into a hug right after.

"Ugh, get a room." Haechan says.