What if? ⋆CirrusXSkylar⋆

⋆Chapter 1⋆

⋆Skylar⋆POv

"Can you stop doing that?!" "h-huh? But.. But we're bestfriends?" "n-not anymore!"
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I dreamed of it again.. Why.. I know I was wrong, I know I shouldn't have said that but I.. Just snapped.
I checked the clock on my nightstand, luckily I wasn't late or else I would have to hurry. I shifted my gaze to the photo frame next to the clock, it was me and Cirrus when we were about seven. It was his birthday, such a nice day.. Just us two and the world, why did I ruin that?

I finished packing my bag and made my way downstairs, I could already hear the faint voices of my mom and sister "morning" "good morning sweetie, did you sleep well?" no I didn't.. "yes I did!" I don't want them to know about my nightmares, were they nightmares? I think so.. I'm not really sure. I was in the bathroom trying to somehow fix my hair, I gave up and quickly cleaned my glasses.

Now I'm trying to get a hold of Chan-il, somehow he always manages to wake up late, I simply sighed as I already arrived at the campus. I took a look around and there were only a few students but no familiar faces so I decided to already go to my classroom.

Please don't be there, please..
Yeah no he was there, looking absolutely mesmerizing as he stared out the window, God those soft looking lips cough he caught me staring, shit?
I coughed out a "good morning" I didn't expect anything back but to my surprise he muttered a "morning.." God was his voice hot and raspy.
In order not to embarrass myself I quickly sat down, I lied down my head on the table in hope of the time passing by quicker. And luckily it helped, because I suddenly heard the first bell and I sighed in relief. Chan-il also arrived a few minutes before the professor, lucky bastard. I was concentrated enough to take notes, which was a win win situation because of the test next week.
Chan-il kept trying to talk to Cirrus, but he got ignored but it made me feel.. Weird inside, seeing the two together and the feeling wasn't really pleasent.. It stung in my chest and I felt nauseous and unconcentrated, it was truly frustrating that I couldn't take notes and that I was feeling like this.. I wanted it to stop, but how?

At lunch Chan-il arrived with Cirrus or rather he dragged him to us.
I could feel Cirrus giving me glances from time to time, it gave me a warm and pleasent feeling rather different than the one this morning. But I do have to say that it was pretty awkward, since Chan-il was the only one keeping the conversation going. I caught Cirrus staring, we held eye contact and God were his eyes mesmerizing I just couldn't look away, shit what do I do? He doesn't seem to look away either? There we were, sitting in the same table having eye contact. I got that nice and warm feeling again, it felt comforting but sadly we got interrupted by the bell. Fucking bell I hope you get dislocated or something. It was now the last lesson for the day and I was feeling rather nervous, I gave Cirrus a small note to meet me after school behind the music building, I wanted to fix things between us and I was desperate to do so.
I was looking at him from time to time, he looked so beautiful, how could someone look like that? His beauty is a crime really. The lesson went on forever, and I was really nervous because well what was I supposed to say? Do I uhm I don't know apologize or something? Well that's future Skylars worry not mine.. But I'm still nervous!
I tried concentrating and taking notes, and it was going pretty good when I noticed Cirrus staring at me.. I just want to pull him out of here and pull him closer to me as our lips suddenly get closer and closer.. "Skylar!" oh shit.. "yes? Professor!?" "can you repeat what I just said?" shit I can't.. "sorry sir.. I wasn't paying attention" this is really embarrassing God. "pay attention now, just because you're the first of class doesn't mean you get to slack off" "yes sir, I apologize" God luckily he let me go, I stole a quick glance at Cirrus, he was still staring at me but with a little smile this time. I thought I was going to melt right there, he was so gorgeous.