Dear Phil [Phan]

16/9/10

Dear Phil,

So I'm still in Glasgow. Apparently I did something right and they want to keep me here for a little while longer. I feel really apprehensive about being here for alone for so long. Even if you're not here with me it would help knowing you're only a phone call away. It's hard feeling so alone all the time, but I don't tell people how I feel because I know they'll tell me I'm being ungrateful. I'm safe and you're risking your life yet I'm the one saying its hard. I can't imagine how you must feel. You've probably made friends there and it doesn't seem all that bad, but I want you to know what you're doing is so selfless and humanitarian and I love you. 

But my love is selfish. I cannot live to breathe without you here with me. In all honesty, I am miserable. I cannot stand not being able to say hello to you every morning. Instead you are saying it to some other soldier and I can't help but feel jealous. They get to see you and I don't. They don't love you as much as I do. They don't know how you like your coffee or how your face scrunches and your tongue sticks out slightly when you laugh. I hope you're laughing over there. Laugh at me, laugh at something we did a long time ago. Laugh at anything, I just want you to laugh. Please write back, I miss you. 

I love you always,

Dan