Behind a love story

The "night"

My name is Hayat. I used to feel good by myself. I was not talking to a guy since more than two months and I was completely fine with it until this night came.
This night was a total surprise and it felt like a movie. Let me tell you about it.
My friend Nour called me in the middle of the day:
- "Hi, you good ?"
- "I'm alright ! What about you ?"
- "Great ! Wanna catch up later ?"
- "Mmh I don't know I'm tired"
- "Pleaseeee I need to go out and I miss my bestie"
- "Okay fine I'll see you at 6 okay ?"
- "Ok see you bye".

I have always been this type of girl who would rather stay at home and watch a movie than go out. Every time I go out I get this uncomfortable feeling of not fitting with people, no succeeding to include myself into conversations, feeling like I'm losing my time, like people don't listen to me whenever I talk. That's why I don't like going out.

I still gotten ready this day to please my friend because she was feeling bad. You know I always used to make sure everybody was fine around me, even though I was not.
I was getting ready to go out, putting makeup on and here comes when I start crying not knowing why like always. Anyways I took my train to join Nour.

Once arrived there we went to this kebab place of the family's of one of her friend Hamza. We ate over there and the food was really good.
Thirty minutes  later Hamza arrived.
I never really spoke with this person before. We used to cross into each other some nights and he always acted weird towards me but in romantic way. I never noticed it though. He was a Tik Tok boy with lots of followers and lot of girls at his feet's, not really my type of man.
He arrived and sat at our table.
I was not really paying attention to him and he was speaking to Nour. Two of his friends joined us, Brahim and Hassan. We started speaking all together, I actually felt comfortable for once.
We started speaking about what type of man we wanted and Hamza said:
- " Lucia, what about you ? What's your type ?"
- I don't really have a type, I definitely look into the personality and the feeling I create and the bond than into physical aspects.
- Oh really, but you must have preferences don't you ?
- Yeah but I don't honk it means anything.
- Tell us about your preferences
- I like tall guys, with brown hair and muscles more like eastern guys. And obviously he has to be Christian.

I described the opposite of Hamza, I really felt this way. Also you need to know that I used to be Christian at the time, that's why he called me Lucia and why I said that my type was Christian men.

The four of us kept talking about random subjects I can't really remember about.
We went out of the restaurant after a certain time. Nour and I had little scooters and we wanted to take them back so nobody would steel them. We walk to them. I didn't know that the boys would stay with us this long. My plan was to get my scooters and say bye to the boys. They actually wanted us to stay together and as we had nothing better to do we said yes. They wanted to stay in town so we asked Brahim who had a condo close from the center if we could put our scooters in his place.
Brahim and Hassan took Nour's scooter and took it to Brahim's condo.
Nour had something to do so she didn't came.
I then found myself alone with Hamza.
He drove my scooter and I was behind him. I can remember I was holding him by his shoulders and he told me " hold me by the waist, I don't feel comfortable this way"
I didn't want at first but he insisted so I did it.
He was driving through the city, driving crazy. I asked him to be careful and he asked me to trust him. I was holding him by the waist and getting more comfortable. It was summer, I could feel the hot hair touching my skin, hairs in the wind, I was watching the sunset, the atmosphere getting soft.
We did not join directly the boys we stayed together a bit.
Hamza was known from everybody in the city. So we crossed into a lot of people he knew as we lived in a small town where everybody know each other and they asked themselves who I was. A lot of girls got jealous, I could feel it and I didn't like it.
We finally arrived at Brahim's and Nour joined us.
Everybody wanted to go out to this bar. Deep down I knew that I hated this place, I used to go out over there but I never felt comfortable there. For me this kind of places remind me of the shaytan, everybody's drunk, and it's a place of sin, it just doesn't feel right to me and it never actually did.
I was not even dressed to go to this kind place but as I was the only one who did not want to go there, we still went. Once arrived, the security refused me to come in because they thought I was underage and I didn't have my ID card.
They all went in except for Wissem. I could see from the very beginning that he was really paying attention to me. There was an outside of this bar where I had the right to sit and order, I just couldn't come inside. He then stayed with me, told me to sit at a table and that he will be back with drinks for me. He promised that he would be quick because he saw that I was not okay with staying by myself in this place.
He came back with my favorite drink without even knowing : cherry cocke.
We started talking together, I was not really in the mood because I had so much anxiety from being over there. I just wanted to leave. I started telling him I was not comfortable here, that I wanted to leave and he really reassured me by saying
- " don't worry I'm here and nothing bad will happen to you, I'm looking after you, you are not alone and I won't leave you by yourself"
These simple words made me feel so much better. I always need to be reassured and it was the first time somebody was really paying attention to what I felt and took the time to try to reassure me so I could feel better. I really appreciated this.
We stayed over there, the boys and Nour finally joined our table. We kept talking about so many things and Hamza was trying to get to know me, asking personals questions, I could feel his attention towards me but I was still not so receptive.
We finally left this place and went back to Brahim's condo.
Something extremely weird happened over there. Hamza was taking a Snapchat video of us and we had this eyes contact thing. My eyes drowned into his eyes. I forgot where I was and I had this unexplainable feeling in my body. At this moment I started realising that something was of, that this was definitely not friendship but way much more.