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Depressed! Jax X Male! reader

Now I don't usually do X Male reader but this is an exception for a comment that was made. It is currently 1 am and I got a burst of energy to write a story soooo here you go Pookie <33
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It had been around a year, or maybe longer, and I kept noticing how Jax didn't show up to any of the main hall meetings or the theme songs.

My heart raced once again as thoughts filled my head. 'Is he okay?? Did he abstract?? Oh I really hope he's okay..'

Jax really didn't seem like the type to be into guys but I didn't care. I liked him more than anything and even if he didn't feel the same way, it wouldn't change a thing.

The show ended as Caine finished up and sent us to our rooms like we were a bunch of toddlers.

"ALRIGHT MY SUPERSTARS. ITS TIME FOR YOU TO HEAD TO YOUR ROOMS!! YOU MAY EXIT YOUR ROOM AT ANYTIME BUT YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO LEAVE THE HALLWAY. GOOD NIGHT MY DARLINGS!!" And with that, he vanished with a puff of smoke.

As I walked down towards my room, there was a part of me that really wanted to go check on Jax. He hadn't come out in days and I was really worried.

His room was right next to mine so it was quite easy to find. I knocked on the door, waiting for an answer.

"F!$#k off." He spat through the door.

I sighed and pulled out the key he had given me, just in case I needed something from his room when he wasn't there.

My heart filled with relief once I heard his voice,inserting the key into the keyhole.

The door unlocked and opened a bit, light flooding into the room. It was really dark so I couldn't see much.

"Jax??" I whimpered and stepped inside the door closing behind me.

"Jax..it's Y/N..please..are you here??" I heard a few footsteps across the room, padding towards me. "What do you want." He asked harshly.

"I want you to talk to me, Jax. You haven't been coming to the theme song intro, let alone coming out of your room at all."

A small sigh was heard as he stepped closer, his face becoming a bit more visible as my eyes adjusted to the darkness.

His eyes were dull and the bags under them really showed how stressed out he was. "I am fine. Now leave."

The feeling of dread filled my chest, my hand instantly reaching out to his face. His movements were stiff, never even flinching when I moved closer.

My hands caressed his face as he stared at me with an unaltered expression, almost as if he really couldn't care less what I did.

"Jax..sweetheart..what's going on?" I spoke, my voice lowering.

I could feel him tremble in my hands, moving his hand up to hold mine as it pressed against his face.

"I can't do it anymore, Y/N. Its unbearable. The sadness, the loneliness, the hurt. I'm so alone and I can't find a reason to not abstract. I keep pushing it out of my head but it's so hard.." His eyes welled up with tears.

Each sentence burned and ached my heart, making my eyes fill with tears as well. "Jax baby.." I sputtered.

"I.. I'm so sorry..I wish I would have known you felt this way sooner.. why didn't you tell me?"

As I stared into his eyes, he cried softly, burying his hands into his face.

"I didn't think you cared..that anyone cared..I'm supposed to be the sarcastic, rude bunny who makes people pissed off, not a pussy boy.I thought I'd get over it but I can't. Nothing is working."

He continued to tell me about how he's been really depressed lately and how he's trying his best to not abstract and leave us all behind.

"Jax..I love you. I really do. You don't deserve to feel this way with your precious heart." My hand rubbed his cheek softly, the other rubbing his back.

The room became a bit quiet, his hand reaching out to grab something.

His hand snaked around my waist as he hugged me, then kissing my lips.

"I love you so much more Y/N...I wish I could leave all of this somewhere other than here. I wish we could get out.."

I nodded and maintained eye contact, pulling at his hand. "Let's start small. We can start by admiring our rights and wrongs then go from there okay? We're going to make sure you don't ever feel like this again, Jax.."

He nodded and kissed my cheek.

"Okay..I trust you.."

"Although I've never been with a guy before so this is gonna be interesting.." he laughed as I rolled my eyes.